just a nobody. // G.D

part 5 // gray

*GRAYSON'S POV*

i messed things up bad between us. she might never speak to me again. i know that's the absolute worst that could happen but still.
maybe, at school, things will be different. maybe she will have forgiven me for cheating.
maybe she will speak to me again.
maybe things will work out between us.
maybe everything will be ok.

but that's not reality.
in reality......

things will not be different at school.
she will not have forgiven me.
she won't speak to me ever again.
it will not work out between us.
everything will not be ok.

i just have to be prepared to let her go.....
even if it means letting my whole world slip away.

but i gotta wake up
i gotta get back into present time.
i have to realize that i'm just a nobody to her now.
i can't have feelings for her.
i have to forget her.

it might be the hardest thing i've ever done in my entire life, but i have to do it.
i can't spend my life wanting someone that will never want me back.
i have to make sure that she is just a nobody to me.
that means no feelings, no attachments, nothing. it has to all be erased.
because what i want, can't happen, and it won't.
i just have to make sure of it.

*AUTHOR'S NOTE*
hiiii.... ik this is super short and i'm sorry. i just needed something to publish while i work on my next chapter. it's gonna be good i hope:) click the video at the top, if u wanna hear one of my fav songs. ily all soo much❤️ -madison

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