just a nobody. // G.D

part 4 // gray+eva

*gray's POV*

it's been a long time.
8 months.
8 months and 2 weeks
since the last time i saw her.
she looks the same.
gorgeous.
same wavy brown hair.
same gleaming hazel eyes.
same freckles on the tip of her nose.
same her.
she hasn't changed, not one bit. it's like i just saw her yesterday. but no, it's been 8 months and things have changed. all because of my stupid mistakes.
i can't cuddle with her.
i can't hear her childish laughter.
i can't hold her hand while walking.
i can't brush my fingers against her cheek.
i can't kiss her forehead before saying goodbye.
i can't be with her anymore.
and it sucks. badly.
because what i want most of all, is her.

*eva's POV*

it's like i took a step back to 8 months ago.
he's still the same grayson i knew.
i want to run up to him and hug him.
but i can't.
things are different now.
he hurt me.
i trusted him.
but i was wrong to do that.
everything was a mistake.
our whole relationship.
but
a mistake i will never forget.
a mistake that i don't want to forget.
i wonder what he thinks of me.
honestly, i don't know what i think of him.
it's all a mess.
the way we left things wasn't right.
i have to fix it.
but i'm not sure if i want him.

*gray's POV*

i debate in my head, whether or not i should run up to her and talk to her while she is still at the doorway.
i stand up.
it's now or never.
this is my chance to make things right.
i may regret it later, but it's worth the shot.

"hey eva"
"hi gray..."
"you look beautiful tonight"

she blushes and looks slightly away at an attempt to hide it from me.
i lift up her chin so she's facing me again.
my boyfriend instincts were really kicking in.

"what are you doing here?"
"my friend zoey dragged me here."

i giggle inside at her response because i know how stubborn she can be from past experiences.

"i forgot that you would be here" she says, ending with a slight chuckle.

i guess she didn't want to see me.

"yeah, well i am twins with the guy hosting it."
i laugh at her stupidity and try coming up with a way to wrap up the conversation before it gets too awkward.

i needed time to discuss things with her and tell her about how i feel, although she might not agree.

she speaks up,
"maybe we can talk sometime"

"yeah, that'd be great"

for some reason a childish grin forms on my face and she giggles.
some things haven't changed.

"i missed your laugh."

i made her blush again.

"don't look away, it's cute."

gosh, i really need to slow things down, i don't know what i'm thinking. i might scare her away.

*eva's POV*

i blush and he tells me that it's cute.
but no,
i can't do this.
not after what he has done.
what he did was not ok.
i'm not sure if i can forgive him.
after all, he did cheat on me with my ex best friend.
i lost two people i thought i could trust that day.
maybe he's different now.
maybe he has grown up a bit.
it's only fair if i give him a chance....

-1 hour later-

(still eva's POV)
i stand at the corner of the kitchen table and watch zoey as she talk to guys.
i hate to admit it.
but i'm very lonely right now.
i wish i had someone to keep me compa-

"hey"

what a coincidence, look who's here.

"oh... hi"
"you looked lonely so i thought i'd come over"

he knows me so well....

"thanks, i guess" i smile lightly, just enough to let him know that what he is doing is ok and that i'm comfortable with it. after all that's happened, i deserve to be able to push him away if i want, whenever i want.

he smiles at the floor as he chuckes and he looks back up at me and we make eye contact.
i wanted to be ok with him. but i can't look at his face and not see the same guy that betrayed me. the face that forgot our loyalty.

"i'm sorry, but i can't do this anymore"

i turn my back to him, and i start walking to the door. i can already sense grayson just standing there where i left him with his jaw dropped and his heart half broken. but then again, it's not my fault, it's his. i yell for zoey to come and she comes rushing to me.

"what's wrong, why are you leaving"
"i'm ready to go"
"wha-, why, ummm... ok"
"meet me in the car"
"ok, i'll be right there"

i'm so lucky i have her. i'd be vulnerable without her.
i half jog/half run to the car, and hop in. i wait for zoey to come and when she does she opens the car door and i hand her the keys. she puts them in the ignition and starts the car. she is about to pull out of the driveway until a person starts running toward the car.
it's grayson.

"where are you going?"
he sounds out of breath.

"home." i say shortly.
"you can't leave"
"of course i can"
"no, i wanted to talk to you more about us"
"there's nothing to talk about"
"yes there is"
"no, grayson, there not. WE don't mean anything. i'm a nobody to you and you're a nobody to me. it needs to stay that way. "

his face is pale, and he's speechless.

"it's for the best"

we pull out of the driveway and i watch as he stands there with his shoulder slumped and his jaw slightly dropped.
silence fills the car until zoey speaks up.

"what was that all about?"
"i don't want to talk about it"

we drive off and the entire time, out of the corner of my eye, i see her still occasionally glancing over at me. i can tell she's worried.

i just can't believe i did that.
it's crazy because i already miss him.
even though i know i shouldn't.

*gray's POV"

she drove away, leaving me in shock.
complete and utter shock.
it's not how i wanted things to go.
i shouldn't have let her drive away.
but i can't believe she did that to me.
then again, i can't believe i did that to her.
that stupid mistake i made.
the one i regret with my life.
i miss her.

*AUTHOR'S NOTE*
thanks so much for reading:)) if you didn't know already, my fan acc is @ dolancloudz // i post edits and stuff hxhx... ily all❤ -madison