A Mind of Mine

#24

1. The boy I used to like back in the high school? I told you I hate him. I told you I found some name-less better guy. Truth is: I loved him tenderly, tragically, and totally. He is a boy who will have some space inside my heart; an untouchable space for anyone else. You're too caught up in your world to realize my lies.

2. I am happy when someone come to me and ask for advices, even though I'm bad at it. But, you know, the thing is, I am a human. I get sad sometimes. Not to mention I'm stupidly super sensitive. You're my best friend, but still there are some problems I'd rather keep to myself. First because you've got too much sadness of your own (I don't want you to see me as a problematic person, you won't ask help from me if that happens), and the second you don't really care about me; you never did. I noticed it, whenever I tell you I'm sad, you always change the subject so it'll always be about you. It's alright, you're my best friend. I could stand being strong.

3. My family fucked me up. You may think a girl like me is raised in a good enviroment and loving family etcetc, when in reality my family used violence for words and tears for morning kisses. My aunt and my mother often ask what's wrong, but can you tell them you wanna kill yourself because of them? No, I think no. So, again, I keep it all inside.