Heart Held Captive

Chapter 16

CHAPTER SIXTEEN

I woke with a gasp, suddenly being pulled out of my dream. With the dark red eyes constantly haunting my dreams I couldn’t sleep properly, even with Roman sleeping next to me. I looked over to him and wished I didn’t have to do this to us, but I couldn’t—I mean I have to, we weren’t right for each other. His arm was draped over my body and I carefully slid out of him warm embrace and sat up on the bed, I wasn’t sure if Roman was a heavy sleeper so crept over to chair that was opposite the bed and sat with my knees to my chest. Sitting there wondering what my next move was, I wasn’t sure if it was safe to escape at the moment. Was the red eyed man still alive? Waiting until he could have my blood on his hands? I knew as long as he was still alive the safest place was wherever Roman was so I knew I had to possibly stay here for little while longer. But what if he was dead? I could be escaping right now, whilst he sleeps I could grab the keys that he keeps in the first draw of his night stand. It would be risky but anything I did here lately felt risky.

Roman began whimpering in his sleep even in the darkness I could see him furrowing his brow. His arms were roaming the bed for me and when he couldn’t find me he shot straight up, awake and alert and calling out my name. I knew now that escaping while he was asleep wasn’t an option, even while he is unconscious he still wants to know where I am.

“Tera?!” He looked over the room frantically until he saw me sitting in the chair. His breathing became more relaxed and he ran his hand through his hair, immediately relaxing as he saw me safe and sound. All I could think now was, I wish that was my hand running through his blonde locks.

“Tera what are you doing over there?” He climbed out of bed and walked over to me. He began stroking my hair and I leaned my face into his large hand.

“I had a nightmare” I looked up at him finding his blue eyes the thing that I needed to put me at ease.

“Come here” He whispered. I stood up and walked into his open arms, they wrapped around me firmly.

“You don’t have to worry Tera, you’re safe here. No one is going to hurt you” he lifted up my chin and stared down at me. “I promise” I wanted to believe him, I wanted to believe that if this was a normal relationship that we would be perfect together, but it wasn’t and that little voice was always there to ruin moments like these.

He kissed my forehead and led me to bed, we snuggled back down under the covers facing each other and this time Roman was holding me tighter, not painfully but just to make sure that I felt safe and it was working. Questions were plaguing my mind and I had to ask;

“Roman.”

“Yeah?”

“Is he—is he still out there? The man with the red eyes?” I could hear him inhale deeply and I knew my answer before he said anything.

“Yes, he is. Its only him and his Beta Zack left, but you don’t have to worry Tera, were going to find them and I am going to personally kill them for laying their filthy hands on you” Knowing that not only was the man with the red eyes was still alive but my tormentor Zack was still out there made goose bumps erupt all over skin and an uncontrollable shiver took over.

I gripped onto Romans taught t-shirt feeling as if I held onto him as much as possible no one would be able to get to me. I looked up at him my eyes trailing to his lips, thoughts of kissing him overrode all my fears. I gently place my lips on his and my body is settled, fear no longer controlling my body but now it is replaced with lust. He kisses back, I can feel his tongue play between my lips asking for entrance, I let him in and the kiss deepens, every fibre of my body awakens and I can’t help but let out a slight moan. He grunts in approval and I can feel his hands move towards my lower body, feeling tingles as his hands touch different parts of me. It isn’t until I feel his hand trail over one of new scars that Zack had left on my thigh when I felt ashamed and embarrassed of my body. I didn’t want Roman to see how intimate Zack had gotten with me but then again with the photos he had taken, he already knew. How could he still want me when he knows about my scarred body?

I pulled away no longer feeling the amazing lust I was feeling before. “Roman, I—I can’t” He stops and looks deeply into my eyes.

“I’m sorry Tera I didn’t mean to make you feel uncomfortable” I knew he was being sweet and understanding but I could help but think back to all those times where I basically had to beat him off of me and now, well now was being patient, something I wasn’t use to from Roman.

“It’s not you Roman—I just. I don’t even know why I started that” I turned around, my back to his chest and I can feel from his lower region just how excited he had gotten.

“Tera there doesn’t have to be a reason, were mates, we yearn to be together” I knew exactly what he meant, the whole time we were apart I felt like something was missing, I felt like something had been taken from me and that I wouldn’t feel whole until I had it back. When I was drifting in and out of unconsciousness on the floor of my prison I knew straight away that it was Roman’s touch I suddenly felt a wash of new energy coarse through my veins and it was healing me like no medicine could.

I nuzzled myself further into the pillow, trying my best to fall back asleep, but I all could think about was Romans warm breath hitting the back of my neck and I wish I could be kissing him again. I felt him move his head to my ear and heard him whisper.

“There is no rush for us to be intimate like that Tera if you feel---uneasy. As long as I have you in my arms I am the happiest man on earth” He kissed the back of my neck and I could hear he get comfortable within his own pillow. I leisurely stroked his arm that was draped over my body and started to bite at my inner cheek trying to hold back my burning tears. I’ve never felt this confused over anything before, let alone a guy who kidnapped me.