VIXX Oneshots

Hongbin: Misunderstanding

"For the 100th time, I'm just friends with her! She's my co-star!" Hongbin yelled in my face. We were having this fight, yet again. My dad left my family when I was 7, leaving me with my older brother Hakyeon (aka N) and my mother. So you really can't blame me for growing up without having much faith in men except oppa. That was, until I met Hongbin. I met him through my older brother. They trained together before debuting and Hongbin, along with the other VIXX members, often frequented my house. He was the first guy to ever make me feel as though he actually cared about me. He made me feel safe and secure, as if he wouldn't leave me like how my dad left us. It took a while to convince oppa to let me date him but in the end, oppa still relented stating that he just wanted to see me happy.

But even so, I couldn't help but feel insecure about our relationship; the thought of him leaving me for another girl being constantly at the back of my mind. The insecurity worsened after Hongbin became an idol and started to hang around his celebrity friends (which included beautiful female idols) more. How do you expect me to feel secure when he's friends with so many gorgeous female idols who are easily 17104982481 times prettier, better and more talented than me?

"I know, but do you have to hang out with her so much even when you guys aren't filming? Even your fans are starting to question your relationship with her!" I retorted back, flailing my arms in frustration.

"My fans have the right to speculate about me and all that because they don't know what's going on. But who are you? You're my girlfriend! Shouldn't you know better than to have such little faith in me?" Hongbin retorted bitterly as he glared back.

"I would have more faith in you if you didn't hang out with her all the time! Even oppa is frustrated at you missing practice so much just to hang out with you 'co-star'," I sighed before continuing "Hongbin, think about it, if she's really just a friend and just a co-star, don't you think you shouldn't be spending so much time with her to the point where you keep missing your curfew to go back to the dorm?" I asked him even though the answer was obvious.

This was getting out of hand. Not only were the fans speculating a whole lot of stuff, but Hongbin was also letting this 'co-star' of his affect his attitude towards VIXX as well. He would rather spend time with her than to practice his choreography for VIXX's comeback and would even stay out late ignoring oppa's scolding. And as for me, I feel like I'm losing my boyfriend. It feels exactly like how it felt when my dad left -- betrayal, hurt, anger, and lots of tears. I really didn't want history to repeat itself, but it honestly felt like it was. And I was afraid.

"Am I even your boyfriend?" Hongbin asked, barely in a whisper as he covered his face with his hands, clearly frustrated with all the questioning he had been receiving from the fans, the VIXX members and me.

"... At this point, I don't know anymore. Are you?" I sighed once more as I walked out of his room and out of VIXX's dorm, ignoring the 5 pairs of eyes watching me in shock as I struggled to hold back my tears. Did I... just break up with Hongbin?

Once I slammed the door and was out of their dorm, I broke down and sunk into my knees. I covered my face with my hands as if it would stop the tears from flowing. I felt the muscles on my chin tremble like a small child as I tried to keep myself from crying so loud. I wanted to leave this place, go back home and just cry in the comfort of my bed but my legs just wouldn't let me. They gave out once I stepped out of VIXX's dorm. As I sat on VIXX's front porch bawling my eyes out, I felt an arm on my shoulder pulling towards its owner's chest. My body relented as I allowed myself to sob freely in his chest.

"Shh shh, it's okay, baby sister. It'll all be alright soon," a voice belonging to my older brother, N, whispered into my ear as he ran his fingers through my hair, knowing that it would calm me down. I wanted to say something but I kept choking on my tears so I gave up and just stayed in my older brother's arms, sobbing and praying that it was all a dream.