Our Own Ending (Jeffmads Punk!Thomas and Nerd!James)

-11- James

I'm so stupid. Why did I say that? I don't even have feelings for Lafayette, I just had a panic attack and said something stupid.
I was going to tell Thomas, but he closed the door on me. It was now Monday, and for the rest of Sunday I was depressed in bed.
Thomas won't answer my calls or texts. I even put a letter in his mailbox! Nothing. He won't speak to me anymore.
Sometimes I have the urge to walk over to his house and say 'I love you."
And yes, I have tried to do that. He didn't answer the door though.
Usually, I would call Eliza or Maria for relationship advice, but they don't exactly like Thomas. Most likely, they would tell me to end the thing.
I look over at my clock, it's 7:20am, and I need to get ready. Quickly I throw on a sweater and black jeans.
I walk to school, not feeling like eating. Thomas is walking ahead of me, but I feel like he doesn't want to see me.
Do you ever have those 1am thoughts? Like how you're in love with someone who's going to die in three years? Yeah, I have those daily.
I walk into the school building and sit with my friends. They continue their conversation, but there was something strange. Lafayette wasn't there.
"Hey, guys?" I croak, my allergies aren't being kind to my voice.
Peggy looks at me, "What?" Obviously, she didn't notice me sitting here and was surprised.
"Where's Laf?" I feel myself getting really nervous for no reason, "I-I was just curious,"
"Oh, he and went out into the hallway...I think to talk with someone," She smiles and goes back to talk with Eliza.
I glance over to the spot where Thomas sits every day. He wasn't there.
My stomach turned and I had a bad feeling something was happening.
Quickly, I stand up and walk into the hallway. There was no sign of Lafayette or Thomas. I walk around, into the 300 hall, the 400 hall, even the 700 hall. I couldn't find them anywhere. The bell rings and crowds of horny and bitchy teenagers surround me.
I push through the crowds, going the opposite direction.
I didn't care about class, all I cared about was finding Thomas. I grab the bathroom door handle. I watch the people rush by. The late bells rings and eventually the halls cleared. A couple of 'rebels' or stoners hang out in the halls.
I hear voices inside the bathroom. I put my ear up to the door. One of the voices sound angry and hurt, and the other one is scared and anxious to leave. I open the door slowly so no one would notice. I see Thomas pinning Lafayette to a wall. This could be taken many separate ways. Either they're fighting, or about to make out. It was pretty unclear of what was happening.
I watch what happened next, arguing with myself on what I should do.
My gut feeling was to break it up before anything happened.
My heart felt as if I should watch and listen.
I decided on what my heart felt.