Our Own Ending (Jeffmads Punk!Thomas and Nerd!James)

-19- Thomas

I sit on the plane next to Lafayette who's with his boyfriend, Hercules, who decided to visit Laf's family. It makes me jealous really, I wish James would come with me.
While flying I pick at my black nail polish and fidget with my nose piercing. I was extremely bored and Laf and Hercules were probably in the bathroom fucking, so I was alone.
I look at pictures on my phone. Most of the pictures are off guard pictures of James. I smile to myself and scroll more.
Finally the flight ends and we can all get off the plane. Lafayette and Hercules go first and I go last. God I hate third wheeling.
Lafayette gives me the keys to his house so I can go while him and Herc go fuck again or something.
I open the door and look around. It's pretty normal I guess. Just a house with pictures hung on the walls.
Almost on instinct I go to the kitchen and grab some food. I sit on the couch and call James.
He doesn't answer.
I get too paranoid and text him.
"Are you ok?" I type quickly and turn my phone off.
I pick up my phone again and type. "Are you mad at me?"
To avoid texting James again. I toss it across the room. I don't want him to think I'm clingy.
My phone buzzes and I basically jump across the room to see who it's from.
"I never want to see you again." My heart stops. The text is from James. It confused me, just yesterday he was saying that he loved me.
Was he lying? How long has he been lying to me? Is our whole relationship a lie?
I turn off my phone, not wanting to respond to the text message. I grab as many drinks, blankets and tissues I could find.
I open the wine bottle and drink, I haven't drank achohol since I was diagnosed with cancer. I didn't care anymore about my health, what's the point? I cry and grab a handful of tissues. I was so stupid to think that James actually loved me.
I'm dying for christ's sake. No one can love me.