"I love you"//Kian Lawley

1.7

I woke up in the morning and walked down into the kitchen. "Hey" Kian chuckled at me. I rolled my eyes at him and grabbed a cup and poured some orange juice into. "I forgot I didn't have pants on" I said, Taking my cup and going up to my room.
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I walked down stairs and it was nearly 2:30 in the morning. I was wearing Nike shorts and a black tank top. My hair was up in a messy bun. Once I got to the bottom step Jc stumbled through the front door almost falling over. "Ow" he mumbled and leaned on the door, Shutting it. Oh no. "Hey" he smiled at me. "Come on, You're going to bed" I said, Dragging him up the stairs. He stumbled over the steps a few times and I threw him onto his bed once We got there.
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"Sit up" I said. He slowly sat up. I lifted his shirt over his head and threw it on the floor. I grabbed a pair of his basket ball shorts and threw them at him. He slipped off his jeans and stepped into the shorts, Stumbling over. "I'm so sorry" He slurred. I grabbed a water bottle from his desk and handed it to him. "I'm not thirsty" He mumbled, Throwing it. "I don't care" I said, Picking it up and taking the lid off. "Drink it" I almost yelled, Putting the water bottle into his hand. He pulled me into his lap, "I'm serious I'm sorry" He laughed. I snatched the water bottle from him and put it between his lips, "please drink some water" I said quietly, He took the water out of my hand and chugged down half of it and put it on the floor. "Please forgive me Dawn" He hiccuped.
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I stood up, "Get some sleep Jc" I whispered and left his room. I walked into my room and sat on the bed. I laid down on my bed and closed my eyes. They jolted open when Jc came in my room. "Dawn" he said. I sighed and got up. "Jc go to bed" I said. "Forgive me please" He whined. My mom always told me the drunk say what's on their mind and that's their truth. So the drunk are honest but they don't know what they're saying.
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"Jc please get some sleep." I begged. He laid on my bed. "Sleep with me" He mumbled. I shut my door and turned the light off and crawled in bed next to him. I closed my eyes, Feeling Jc come up behind me and wrap his arm around my waist. "I'm so sorry. I love you so much" He mumbled and that's the last thing I heard from him before snores escapes his lips. His body smelled like sweat and alcohol. I don't know why but my breathing increased and I was quietly sobbing in Jc's embrace.
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I woke up around 11am and Jc was gone. I sat up and got out of bed. I took a quick shower and brushed my teeth. Once I got out I changed into light washed high waisted shorts and a white halter crop top. I but on a black, white, and red checkered flannel and my black and white vans.

---(listen to 'A Drop In The Ocean by Ron Pope here')

I walked downstairs, Seeing Kian talking to Jc while Jc took some aspirin. Maybe he just woke up too? "Hey" I said quietly. They both looked at me. "You gonna go to the music store today? You promised me" Kian said. I smiled and nodded. "Okay" I said. "You're getting a job?" Jc asked, Looking at me. "Maybe" is all I said and walked upstairs to my room. I remembered Kian gave me his lighter and a cigarette on my birthday. I grabbed them from my dresser and I went back down stairs and walked onto the back porch.
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Jc PoV
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I watched as the smoke escaped her lips. "We really changed her" I said quietly to Kian. "Yeah" He responded. "Do you mean what you said to her?" He asked, Not even looking at me. "What do you mean?" I asked. "Like how you said that you didn't care if it were awkward between you two?" I looked down at my folded arms against the cold counter. "Was she just some little enjoyment to you?" He added. "Of course not" I sighed. "She really likes Adam. But I love her. And. And I think I told her. But I don't remember my head hurts so much" I almost yelled. "I'll talk to her" Kian said and got up Going outside.
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Kian PoV
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"Hey" I said, Pulling a cigarette out of my pocket and sitting next to her. She looked over at me and handed me my lighter. I lit it and put my lighter into my pocket before inhaling and exhaling the smoke through my nose, Sighing. "Did Jc tell you anything last night? Since he came home pretty drunk" I asked. "Yeah. He um. He kept apologizing and he said that he loved me" She paused and furrowed her eyebrows and looked down. "But I don't know how I feel towards him. And I don't know how I feel about Adam and I'm so confused and stressed and. Ugh!" She screamed, Standing up and slapping her hands against her thighs.
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"Just sit down and relax, Im here Dawn." i said, Placing my hand on her shoulder. "Kian, I'm so sorry" is all she said. "Why?" I asked.
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Dawn PoV
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"When I first moved here, You were the first person I met. And we met in a really weird way. It was when you had blonde hair and when you worked at that tattoo parlor. I went there because I wanted to get the dream catcher and I laid on the chair for like hours and hours for my first tattoo. And I got it because you're supposed to catch your dreams. And I did, I really liked you and you were the dream. And then we ended up dating for maybe a year and then I just wanted to be friends, After I met Jc, I broke up with you. And I'm so stupid for that! I didn't deserve you and I still don't. I then met Matthew and I forgot all about you and Jc for like a year and then Matthew knew you and he invited you guys over and I remembered everything. When I saw you and Jc, You guys looked different. Jc had curly hair and you had blonde hair. And Jc had lost weight and you got more muscular and I saw what great people lost. And I noticed how much you changed, Like your personality wise. You seemed less awkward and Jc seemed more mature. You got taller as did Jc. We started hanging out more after that and that's where we are now. I still saw Jc different though. I saw that he started to drink more and. And I saw him change, Not only in stories of people who said things but every time I saw him, He was different. And seeing him change over the few years." I paused. "It hurt me. It hurt me so much!" I cried. "And I don't know why Kian" I finished, I was crying and Kian had me in his lap, Rubbing my back and telling me things to comfort me. "And for some reason I don't know how I feel about anyone right now. I don't even think I've lost my feelings for you and I'm just so confused" I continued to cry.