"I love you"//Kian Lawley

3.1

(One week later)
(The rest of the story is in Kian's PoV unless I change it)
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I watched Everyone walk in. Jc, Julian, and Emma all sat in the front row. I called Adam and he flew down to Australia, Along with Matthew and any other of her friends or people part of her life. Matthew deserved to be there, He was a part of her life for three years. I sighed, Standing up and making my way to say a speech.
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"So, I know why we're all here. And um, It's terrible. But, I just wanted to say something. When Dawn moved from Australia to America she was 15. I was currently working at a tattoo parlor and she came in, Asking for her first tattoo. And I did it. She then came back six months later and got another one and we hung out more after that. She was 15 and I was 16 and I dropped out of school. After a while, We became a couple for about a year. On our first date I asked her 'do you believe in love at first site?' And she told me she didn't believe in it and I called her crazy. She told me that it's like a drug, or like getting drunk. You forget what you're saying and you just start lying. She told me 'people say I love you just to make them feel good because in the end we're all lying' and then just a few months ago she told me 'love is a drug and I choose not to take it' and I asked her why. She said 'it makes you say things that aren't true' and today, I still think it's crazy. But now, Enough talking about that and talking about the real her. Dawn was such an amazing person. She had these big dreams that she told me she would do. Like. Become an actress and a singer and she's always had this passion to surf. And I-I hate to see that she won't be able to do that now and. And it's terrible. I'm all over the place. When her and I were dating, She ended our relationship after a year when she met someone but she never got with them, She got with someone else. And they broke up after three years. And then after a few months her and I got together. And we still are. Well..was. And she told me she would never say I love you because she didn't want to hurt me and she only says it to family. She told me she was scared of commitment and she had trust issues. Dawn was a confusing but such a bright person. She deserved to live such a longer life." I let out a breath, Tears running down my cheeks. I wiped them away.
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"Over the past five years I knew Dawn, I learned something. She taught me, No matter what you thought like if you thought you couldn't do this or that, That you should still go for it. That no matter what was in your way, Knock it down and go do what you want to do. She got the dream catcher tattoo because she said you have so many dreams that you have to catch them and then you have to fulfill them. She got an open heart tattoo because she said  that love is empty and that you have to keep the boarders strong and the inside empty because if you filled it, Someone would step on it and squeeze all of it out. And she got her star tattoo because she. She said she got it to match my moon tattoo. And that the moon and stars should be together while the sun and clouds should be together. She said to shoot for the stars and always wish upon one. She had a confusing meaning for it. But I always understood her." I breathed.
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I sat back down and put my face in my hands, Tears running down my cheeks.
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"My little sister Dawn. She was an amazing person and such a bright one. She was such inspiration for me though I'm older. We always had a close relationship and we always told each other we would live together when I got out of the Military. And then I went MIA for five years and I found out she moved to America and then after she found me, A few months later her and I moved in together. I know that our parents would be proud of her and that she would've made it so far in life." Julian sat back down and then Jc got up.
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"Dawn was always like a little sister to me. We had a few rough patches but no matter if we hated each other we would be there for each other. I'm proud of how far she got and got her a guitar to start off her music career but she wanted to act more than anything and she said this year, After she turned 21 she would start." Jc's voice became wobbly, his voice cracking. "And it can't happen now" He cried. Tears ran down his face, "I'm sorry" he said quietly and walked away.
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(Two weeks later)
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I decided to stay in Australia for a few months since she was buried here. I walked to the cemetery everyday and I would sit and talk.
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"It's been almost a month. And. And I miss you so god damn much. And I wish you would've just turned around, But you didn't. You always said catch your dreams and one of them was to get down the biggest waves that were in your way. And you did for a while and then one knocked you over and." I sucked in a breath. "I know you'll hate me for saying this, But Dawn, I wish I could've said this to you in person but,
i love you"