"I love you"//Kian Lawley

1.8

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Kian PoV
(Again)
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After sitting with Dawn for almost and hour I just kept thinking about what she said. 'And I don't even think I've lost my feelings for you' but we broke up like two years ago. Or three. I don't remember. I walked inside and saw Jc sitting on the counter. "Did she say anything about me?" He asked quietly. "Nothing important" I lied and went upstairs to my room.
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Dawn PoV
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"Kian!" I yelled. A few seconds later he walked in. "Yes?" I glanced down at him from my bed to my doorway. "Can you help me hang this up?" I asked, Holding open the unfolded tapestry. He chuckled and nodded. He stepped onto the bed with me and grabbed the tack. He pushed it into the wall on the right corner and walked to the other side, Tacking the corner. He did the same at the bottom, "do you have an extra tripod?" I asked him before he left. "I'll check" he smiled and walked out.
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I un boxed my camera and Kian helped me set it up and all that jazz. Who even says that? After he left I grabbed the guitar Jc gave me and grabbed the guitar pick and the capo. I clipped it on near the top of the neck and sat the guitar on the bed.
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Jc PoV
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I heard her playing the guitar. She was making her first video. I smiled, Listening to her sing after she kicked us out of her room.
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Dawn PoV
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"Hi I'm Dawn and this is my first video, So I will be sin-" I was cut off by Kian and Jc screaming. Kian ran into my room and jumped behind me. "Guys! I'm trying to make a video!" I yelled. "I'll help you edit because you're leaving this in" Kian smiled as Jc ran into the room and Jumped onto Kian. "Uhm, These are my roommates." I said, "We have a collab channel and personal channels" Jc said and sat on Kian, "Get off!" Kian screamed. I just sat there, Staring at the camera view frame.
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Kian was helping me edit and halfway through him and Kian he put 'this lasted for another ten minutes' and zoomed into my face and then back out. I was finally able to record my video by myself.
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Kian, Jc, and I were in the kitchen. "For your next video you should do a get to know you video" Jc said, Scrolling through twitter. "I don't know if I'm really into the video thing." I mumbled. "You should continue you to do. Someone could notice you" Kian said, Looking up at me from his phone. "I used to be in Theater and I really enjoy acting but I love playing guitar." I answered.
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"Night" I said, Walking by Jc's room and then went into Kian's room. "Hey" He said, Looking up from his laptop. I sat next to him on his bed. "Whatcha doing?" I asked. "Editing a video" He answered. I nodded, Leaning my head on his shoulder. I don't know if I lost my feelings for him. I don't know how I feel about anyone. Like all my friends are guys and- "you alright?" Kian asked, Leaning his head on mine. "Yeah" I breathed. "Do you h-" he cut me off. "They're in my jacket pocket down stairs" Is all he said. I got up and went down stairs, Grabbing his lighter and a cancer stick.
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I sat with my feet in the pool. I moved them around, Letting the water ripple. I inhaled and then exhaled a puff of smoke. Jc walked out. He sat next to me. "Did Kian tell you anything?" I asked him. "No" He answered. "Is there something I should know?" He added. I looked down and furrowed my eye brows. "I don't know" I sighed, Looking up at him.
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"Jc. Can I ask you something?" I asked. "Of course." He answered, Turning his body towards mine. I looked at him, "Have you ever had feelings for me?" I asked, Waiting for his answer. But he stayed quiet and looked down at his hands between his legs. "It's a yes or no question and I want you to be honest with me" I said quietly, Making eye contact with him. "Yes. I have had feelings for you" he said, sighing. "And I still do" he added. "But you like Adam" He finished. "I don't like Adam" I laughed. "I'm just confused about how I feel about you and if I wasn't confused about another person I would totally tell you how I feel" I gave him a weak smile.
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"Who's that other person?" He asked. "I can't tell you" Is all I said and went back inside. I ran up to Kian's room and shut the door behind me. He looked up at me from his laptop. "Jc told me he has feelings for me" I said quietly and sat next to him. "What did you say?" He asked. "That I can't tell him how I feel because I'm confused and if I weren't confused I would tell him how I felt" I answered. "I hate how I tell you everything" I groaned and fell back onto his bed. He chuckled and grabbed my hand, Pulling me up next to him. "Why're you so confused?" He asked. "Because I don't know how I feel about you" I said quietly.
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"Would anything fix that?" He asked. I shrugged, Staring at him. I slowly felt him start to lean in. But I found myself doing the same.
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I woke up next to Kian. I sat up in my sports bra and Nike shorts. I quietly got out of his bed and walked into my room. I changed into dark blue ripped jeans and each rip was half a inch apart and went all the way down my leg. I put a white zip up in the front crop top with black designs on. I put on my black vans and I curled my hair.
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I went down stairs and saw Jc. He was sitting on the counter with his back against a cabinet. "Hey" I said, walking in. He looked at me and gave me a small smile. I grabbed a water bottle from the fridge and went up stairs. I was about to walk into my room but Kian walked out of his. "Hey" I said, He smiled at me. "Can we talk later?" I asked before he walked away. He nodded and walked down stairs. I went into my room and shut the door, Going onto my computer. I checked my video.
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After being on YouTube for about an hour, Kian walked in and shut the door behind him. "Did we-" He cut me off. "Yeah" He sat on my bed. I nodded, Sucking in a breath. "I have to go to the store so I'll be back later" I said and grabbed my car keys and my purse. I walked out of my room and down stairs.
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"Dawn, You could've told me that you and Kian were dating again" Jc said before I was able to reach the door. "What? We're not dating" I answered. "It sounded like you guys are last night" He responded. "No it's ju-" he cut me off. "What? You thought having sex with him would make you decided if you're over him or not? No because that just shows me that you lied to me and that you have no feelings what so ever for me and you've kept those feelings for Kian! He actually got a chance with you!" He yelled. "Then why did I break up with Kian when I met you?" I screamed. "I'm done with this" I quickly said and left, Getting into my car.
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I went to the gas station down the road and bought a pack of cancer sticks and a lighter. I left and went home. I stuffed the things in my bag and threw the plastic one in the trash once I got out of the car. I went inside and heard Kian and Jc yelling at each other. I threw my bag down, Grabbing the lighter and pack of cigarettes out of it and went out onto the back porch.
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Jc walked out. "Please go inside I do not want to talk to you nor do I want to hear you talk" I said, Looking at him. "I want to apologize" He said. "You don't have to because you were right" I said as he sat down next to me. "I have to go, I forgot I promised Kian that I would go to the Music store yesterday" I said and got up.
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While I was at the store, Filling put my application someone walked in. I glanced over and it was the boss. "Almost done?" He asked sitting across from me. "Almost" I said. "Do you play anything?" He asked. "Yeah, I play the guitar."