Run Away With Me (Peter Pan fanfic - OUAT)

Heartfelt Embraces - Chapter 11

'Space is just a word made up by someone who's afraid to get too... Close'
Close - Nick Jonas

A heavy ache rested inside my chest, refusing to budge that it was making it hard to breathe. That was the first thing that made me wake up. The next thing was the loud cheers I could hear outside, emitting from the lost boys, especially the young ones whilst they were playing. I sat up in bed, rubbing off the remnants of my sleep from my eyes, looking around in a confused manner; Neverland was still new to me so I had to get used to waking up elsewhere from my usual bedroom. Along with the realisation of Neverland, terrible memories invaded my mind regarding yesterday. Memories that I didn't want to remember. Memories I wanted to push to the bottom of my mind because remembering them reminded me of my foolishness and the state where I was lost and vulnerable.

Another thing I noticed was that I woke up alone, not that I minded...
Liar.
My haunting conscience repeated that in my mind and no matter how much I denied it, I couldn't help but feel lonely without a certain someone next to me. I didn't know why I acted to affected, it wasn't like I wasn't going to see him later on. This strange fact motivated me to get out of bed and face everyone whether they were informed of the events that occurred yesterday or not. Which reminded me to ask them where they were yesterday, I was't going to blame anyone but myself however it was the lost boys and Pan whom I was searching for and if they notified me about their whereabouts, this experience could have been prevented. But that still doesn't justify my actions from yesterday.

After getting dressed and making myself look somewhat presentable without a brush or possibly some makeup, I made my way towards the rest of the lost boys in hope that I could push away my social anxiety for once and make friends.

The younger boys were playing some game that involved throwing pebbles and I happened to be their unintentional target at one point. The older boys decided to look cooler than they were by having very grownup chats and lord knows what they were talking about. There was one boy leaning against a tree, observing everyone's activities this fine morning, isolated from everyone else like an outcast. His body was covered by a large, dark cloak which you were only supposed to wear when travelling around Neverland. I tried to think which lost boy was missing from the crowd and it finally dawned upon me that it was Felix. I hadn't spoken to Felix since when he was helping me save Pan. So I thought now would be a convenient time to thank him. I don't know what I would have done without Pan...HOLD UP! Did I just? What is happening to me? I can't be developing feelings for... Can I? Unanswerable questions invaded my mind, leaving ame no space to think for myself that I had to groan for all the thoughts to scatter away.

I made my way to the bathroom, resuming to my daily routine and whilst I was looking at myself in the mirror. I noticed my skin was a sickly pale colour despite my neutral feeling, it didn't hurt anywhere but why did I look so sick. It was that moment when a wave of an indescribable shock passed through me, weakening my body and catching me off guard that I had to grip the sink tightly. I ran a couple of steps to the toilet beside the sink and threw up the contants in my stomach, it was probably the excess water remaining in my body after yesterday. Clutching onto the sink to keep me standing, I noticed the sudden heavy feeling that settled in not only my stomach, but my heart as well. I quickly washed my face hakily exited the bathroom, feeling weak and drowsy but no one could know about that.

My breaths came out as short quick pants and I steadied my self with the lie that I was fine which was the only motivation that led me to continue as if nothing happened. Quickly changing, I performed little movement as possible like when I pulled my shirt over my head due to my aching sore muscles. Perhaps fresh air would help calm me down from this weird state so I trudged outside, dragging my heels behind me.
My theory was right and the fresh air that filled Neverland soothed my nerves that I felt like I could breathe without heavy weights dragging down my lungs per breath. Running a hand through my wild, messy hair, I revealed myself towards the light and what happened next was like the whole world stopped, like time stopped which was ironic considering our setting.

Every pair of the lost boy's eyes settled on me with curious and intrigued stares. Feeling exposed and self conscious I ran back up the tree house, not liking the fact that I was centre of attention. Although I knew nobody bothered to make a move to follow me, I still picked up my pace until I reached what I considered safety: my room. Well technically it wasn't really my room but I was temporarily staying in it.

Slamming the door with a loud thud, my back slided down against the smooth wood until my butt landed on the ground. My knees were pulled protectively in front of me as a barrier against any signs of danger. My vision was focused on the floor as my fingers tugged at my hair, pulling slightly but not enough to make my scalp sting. In my blind state of overwhelmed feelings, I didn't notice that I had company in the room standing before me.

My eyes trailed up his legs covered with dark brown trousers and a murky green shirt covered with brown leather. Almost afraid of meeting his forest green eyes, I snapped my eyes back to the ground as soon as his neck came into my line of vision.
"You have no idea on how much trouble you're in" his voice was't a mixture of sternness and authority which made me continue to avoid his gaze. I couldn't face to bear him, especially after what happened the night before.
"Look at me" he snapped after my silence was his answer.
"I said look at me when I'm talking" his voice softened at some point in the instruction but regained a little anger.
I heard some shuffling and noticed Pan was crouching down, his face in my peripheral vision so there was no way I could avoid him unless I close my eyes but I knew he wouldn't take kindly to that action.
But still I avoided his intent stare and watched the floor like it was the most interest thing in the world. Two fingers were placed under my chin and gently tilted my head up, angling my vision so that I was staring at Pan straight in the eyes. That was how we spent the next minute, watching each other dead in the eyes, neither of us making the move to avert our vision or to break the silence until Pan softly asked "Do you have any idea on what position you put me in?" my eyes flickered back to the floor as the deep question hung in the air.

After a while I replied "I-I'm S-Sorry-y" cursing myself for stuttering like a weak and pathetic child caught red handed doing something they shouldn't have.
"Sorry just won't cut it this time" he made a move to get up, giving up on me but I wouldn't let that happen so I grabbed his wrist tightly and brought him down to my level again. Without thinking, my arms made a loop around his neck as I brought him closer to me, so that his chest crashed into mine, pulling him into a hug. Surprised, Pan didn't do anything in the beginning but then his arms crept up and linked around my waist. My head rested on his shoulder and I inhaled his unique scent of the forest but of manliness as well at the same time.
"Don't do that again, love" his head dug into the crook of my neck where my hair covered his face but he didn't seem to mind. We didn't seem to mind anything when we were held in each other's embrace. I just felt complete and protected to the point that nothing else mattered but like all good things, this hug had to come to an end.

Pan's POV (you're welcome)
The crease on my forehead melted away into nothing as I felt small arms wrap around my neck. At first, I was surprised with this act especially coming from Wendy, but I said nothing and returned the favour and wrapped my arms around her tiny waist. My eyes closed as I pushed my face to the crook of her neck, engulfed in her sweet scent which I couldn't get enough of. "Don't do that again, love" I mumbled into her air but my eyes snapped open as I felt a message ping in my mind.

Meet me at the Dark Hollow...Now!

There could only be one person that could control me like this and have the power to access my mind. And something told me it was better to obey the voice otherwise things would get ugly and drown out Wendy's beauty.