Tori Kelly imagines [Editing]

my heart for you

3:15 am.

i shouldn't be awake yet here i am contemplating life.
i can see the future me cursing myself for doing this.

i pull up the blanket covering my shoulders and shifted myself looking for a comfortable position. there isn't one.
i sighed and closed my eyes.
one thought and another goes by my mind.

i opened eyes. my eyes drifted over to see a lump facing me in the blankets next to me. it slowly rises up and down.
oh tori.

every thought in my mind changes to her.
i look moon through the moon. it's so bright. the moon. i feel bad for the moon. every night the stars leaves the moon, losing something it shines with.
tori loves the moon. she has one of those baseball hats with a small moon embedded in it. it's aesthetically cute and it fits her.

everything fits her. it's tori. she makes everything work. everything somehow falls into place when it comes to her. like us. we fell into place.

i turned to face tori. i know it's cliché and weird to stare at your lover while they're sleeping. but you can't help it. it's the sense of peace that drawls you in. the moment of reality and breather in life. to think up to this point that love is real and it's in front of you.

my heart just fills with warmth every time i see her. "i love you" i whisper so quietly i might have whispered it instead.

it was the first time i actually said it with the whole meaning. i was one of those who thought those three words were used too much. those three words became watered down with its meaning. i rarely used it. 'i love you' was like another 'hi' or 'hello'

"i love you with each passing moment" i whispered to tori. the corner of my mouth rises at each moment i thought about her. "i know i probably don't show it as much or even say it. but i do. i'm new to all this love thing but i'm trying for you. you are my hope to become a better person" i clutch the duvet a little harder being embarrassed of this badly timed confession.

i focused on our breathing.
in and out.
in and out.

"i love you too"
i hear the faintest sleepy whisper from tori.

i tried to hold it in together but i broke out in a grin. a grin that started to make my face hurt the longer i do it.

i hugged tori getting in as close as i could get. not wanting to go.

"love you so much"

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this book will probably discontinue when it reaches 100 chapters ): (though it practically feels like it)