Tori Kelly imagines [Editing]

Far too long

lol get ready
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6:00 am

Time to wake up.

Tori would absolutely hate waking up this early, though she would be satisfied and tamed once she got her morning cup and the good view of the sunrise.

I lay there and stared at the ceiling. I didn't really feel like waking up. I didn't feel like doing anything. I don't think I would be able to.

But for Tori's sake, I will.

I sat and turned to the edge with my feet dangling off the bed. Once again, I stared at the ground. My eyebrows furrowed at every thought coming to my head. It was overwhelming.

If Tori was here she would ask me the phrase, "a penny for your thoughts" then laugh it off with, "so many thoughts through your mind that I would pay to know."

I sighed heavily and stood up preparing for the day. Once I changed into something decent besides sweats and hoodies. I wondered what I would want for breakfast.

Tori would have it all planned out. She would get sunny side eggs with some toast and a healthy smoothie on the side, and of course, either a banana or an apple depending what we have in stock. I was usually more difficult in deciding on what to eat. However, I didn't bother today.

I grabbed a bowl, milk, and captain crunch. I poured the cereal into my bowl and gently poured in the milk trying not to spill. I sat there crunching on the cereal while looking on the box.

Captain crunch was Tori's favorite. She loved the flavor and especially loved reading the back of the box. She would have so much fun doing the silly little activities on the back.

However, the cereal was bland today.

Once I finished, I got up and washed the bowl. The job didn't seem much, but it was tiring enough for me. I looked at the clock, 7:00 am. Just in time. I grabbed my phone and my purse then made my way out of the door.

I decided not to hail a cab for where I was going. I had enough time to walk there at my pace, although it was a couple of blocks away. I'll be slightly out of breath, but I'll be fine.

I turned the corner and saw the shop I was looking for. The flower shop, I was looking for pink carnations. I remember Tori told me it meant "I'll never forget you" she first gave me one when she was going away for tour. It was wasn't her favorite, but she still appreciated it. Her favorite was a peach colored daisy. She just likes it because of the looks and not the meaning.

I greeted the shop lady and asked for just a single pink carnation. She was more than delighted to do. I looked around the shop seeing many beautiful flowers as she got it ready. I remember how Tori loved to go here. It was peaceful and pretty, two things she loved. The flower lady called me back with my flower ready. I handed her some money and thanked her and left.

To my next destination and this time I hailed a cab. I politely told the driver where I was heading and stayed quoted during the journey. I was grateful as the cab driver didn't try to make small talk. Either way, I probably wouldn't catch anything as I was busy staring out the window.

It was sunny today. Couple clouds out, but other than that nice weather. The taxi came to a stop and we were here. I thank him while handing him a couple of bucks.I got out and took a deep breath. I walked through the gate and followed the pathway and searched for the one I was looking for.

I looked around and saw one or two families around. Parents, grandparents, and their children.

I turned left getting closer to where I needed to be. Few more minutes and I was there. I kneeled down and placed the flower on the ground.

"Hey, Tori."

"I miss you," I said gently. I felt tears beginning to brim around my eyes. I began sniffling and the tears fell.

"It's been two months since you left," I tried to wipe away the tears but there was no use.

"I've been trying. I've tried really hard to get through the days. But it's so hard." I stared at the tombstone in front of me.

"Your were part of me. We were like a duo. I thought nobody could stop us, but I guess I was wrong," I took another heavy breath.

Here I was crying under the sun on a beautiful day wishing my lover came back.

"I never got to marry you. I didn't have a chance to. You didn't get to live out your life and grow old with me," I started to laugh angrily at how life wasn't fair.

"You didn't deserve this." I clenched my hand. I was angry. I was angry at the world that took Tori away from me.

"But I won't let you down. I am going to make you proud, I promise."

I heard footsteps behind me getting closer. "Y/n, how long have you been here?" a hand was placed on my shoulder.

I look back and saw Tori's family. I looked at the hand and up to see who's it was. Noah.

"Not long enough for her to come back," I rolled my eyes and continued to wipe my eyes. I know I look awful I am an ugly crier.

"I want her back Noah," I stood up to hug him.

"We all do y/n, but life doesn't work like that"

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This was inspired by the recent mishaps of Christina Grimmie.

Gosh, I don't know where to start. I am devastated that it happened. I was very shocked to hear it last night. It's disappointing how many lives have been taken away from the easily accessed weapons. The US needs to step up with security and gun control.

RIP Christina Grimmie