Two Brothers. ( A Drama)

It's A Mess

A Few Days Later

-Carnell

"Hey little man!" I said picking Raj up out of his crib. When he turns out to be spoiled, it'll be 95% my fault. Once I got use to picking him up I didn't want to put him down. I don't want to miss anything he does. I love my son and I love being his Dad. He doesn't do much yet but cry and make baby noises. I caught him smiling a few times, he even smiled at me before.  It's just cool to have someone who looks just like me.

"Carnell, put him down!" Kendra came in Raj's room to take him for me. "Ken, move. He's fine." I said moving back from her. "You're the reason he barely likes to sleep in his crib now." She said with her hand on her hip. "Ok ok, I'll put him down in a little bit." I said leaving out of his room and into the living room. Kendra huffed and went back into the kitchen to finish cooking while I fed Rajan. She wanted to cook for me today. I was hungry, so shit why not take advantage of the situation.  After burping Raj I laid him in his bassinet and went into the kitchen.

I was watching her cook. Ken was an attractive chick. A few shades darker than me, slender nose, nice pretty brown eyes and sexy lips. Ken wasn't thick at all, she didn't have a fat ass and big tits. She was normal size but still fine. I got up to get a taste of whatever she was cooking.  "Move! I'll tell you when it's done." She said pushing me away. I stuck my finger in the pot anyway and licked my finger clean. I saw her eyeing me down. "Don't look at me like that. I love Raj and all but we aren't making another one." She rolled her eyes and smiled.  "Boy, nobody wants you." I smacked my lips and laughed. "You obviously do. Don't act like you don't try to impress me. You got your hair all curled, make up on, nails done. Leggings on so your little ass can poke out, and a tight shirt but you don't want me? You're cooking for me but you don't want me? You're hard work isn't going unnoticed, don't worry." I said smiling. I wanted to play with her a little and it worked.  She was trying to hide her smile. "Carnell please, I dress like this for myself." She said waving me off.

I stared at her then put her arms down at her side. I moved her by the counter and put my hands on both sides of her.She kept her eyes on me the whole time. I smirked at her. "Look at you Ken, stop denying the truth." Kendra stood up on her toes and pecked my lips. I was kinda shocked she actually kissed me, before I could move she kissed me again. This kiss was different.  Ken put some emotion behind it this time. It wasn't fast, it was a slow, hot, passionate kiss and I was lost in it. I didn't pull back and I didn't notice until I started rubbing on her hips. She ran her hands up my arms and tugged at my shirt. I picked her up and sat her on the counter. Kendra finally took my shirt off and rubbed on my abs. I was going to unsnap her bra when Raj started crying, bringing me back to reality.  "Shit." I sighed hanging my head. Kendra slowly dropped her hands from my chest and hopped off the counter to get Raj. I picked my shirt up and put it back on.

I went too far this time. I was on a good track and basically fucked up. Kendra came back in holding Raj. I walked over and kissed him so I could leave. "You're leaving?" She asked confused.  "Yeah." "Carnell, stay." She begged me. "It's probably best I only see him on the weekends and stop coming over." I said flatly. "Seriously? Carnell it was just a kiss. I don't see the big deal! We should at least be able to kiss. " She was shocked I was being serious. "I fucked Milena over too many times already, dealing with you. I'm finally doing right, I don't want to mess this up."

I was sitting in my car replaying what happened. I looked at the watch Milena bought me for my birthday last month and instantly felt bad again. I was so close to fucking her and enjoying it. I laid my head on the steering wheel. Was I really starting to catch feelings for my baby mama?

- Patrick

"Hey. " Milena said while walking into the studio with that beautiful smile of hers. I grabbed her and sat her on my lap. "You look beautiful today." I kissed her. "Thank you, I missed you so much. I'm starting to hate not seeing you everyday. " She said it  kind of flat.  I wrapped my arms around her. "Well, we can change that. I have to go to LA soon for a  few weeks and I want you to come with me." "Patrick.." She said it so uneasy.  " It'll be fun! We'll have time to spend together I promise.  We can go anywhere you want, and." I kissed her neck. "We can fuck anywhere.  In the hotel, the plane, find a beach." Lena stood up. "I'm not going with you. Do you want Carnell to kill me?" I sighed. "Can you not focus on him for five fucking minutes please? This is about us." She folded her arms and bit her lip. I don't know why she's acting so sketchy like this. "And what lie am I gonna keep up for two weeks? I live with him now. I don't know if I can keep doing this."

Here we go again. As always she wants to back out on me instead of work it out. "Just like that. You gonna up and leave me, again? Then why are you with me? If it's so easy for you to quit on me, let me know why you're with me Lena." She started pacing around the studio. "It's easy with you but the situation is so fucked up. If I wasn't with him I swear this would work. Honestly, it was just sex between us right now, all we do is fuck! You can't take me out, I can't call you when I want to or see you when I want!" Milena was on the verge of tears. All I could do was shake my head. "I told you to leave him and then we could do whatever we want. Listen, I'm not forcing you to be with me, or fuck me. Those are decisions you made on your own. Lena, you don't have to question how much I love or care about you. It's killing me to go behind my brother's back and be with you, but I'm doing it! So what is it this time? You leaving me again or finally making the right decision and stay with me?" I said holding onto her hand. She gently and slowly pulled back. "Patrick, I love you. You don't have to question my love either.  Just, give me some time to think." She gave me a kiss then left.

I left shortly after she did. No way I could be in there and focus.  Milena can make me so frustrated and mad. It's the same damn thing with us, I feel like we're trapped in this cycle.  We reach a point in our relationship where things couldn't go wrong and then the worst shit happens. We'll never be fully happy, I'm convinced. This wasn't meant to be at all. All the hopes and visions I had of us building and having a life together are almost dead to me. I'll be disappointed every time hoping for the best with her.

When I rode past my house to pull in the driveway I saw something in front of my door. I shouldn't have any packages, I don't remember ordering anything. I got out the car and the closer I walked to it, I saw it was a thick white blanket.  "What the hell?" I bent down to lift up the blanket.  "Oh shit."

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So there's only about 3 chapters left and I was going to make it all cute and nice then I got a few ideas and decided to make it a little messy lol