Two Brothers. ( A Drama)

Who Are You?

- Milena

"You missed me." Carnell said in a cocky tone. I sighed "I want to talk." "Then bring your ass over here." He said smoothly then hung up the phone.  After Carnell came up to my job yesterday and kissed me my brain has been scattered. We didn't do anything after that, he got in his car and I got in mine. I just have to get this off my chest. I can't officially move forward with this on my mind.

I got out the car and went up to the door to knock but it was already open. I went in and locked it back and made my way to Carnell's room. When I opened his door he was shirtless, laying in bed and I could see the bruise on his side. "Oh my God." I rushed over to him. "I'm so sorry!" "It's ok Lena, it hurts a lot less than a few days ago. You not gonna hug me now?" Even though I hugged him yesterday I wanted to be gentle. "I'm not gonna break." He started laughing at how cautious I was being. I bent down to hug him and he grabbed my butt. "Stop! I only came here to talk." "You love it when I do that stop the front." He pulled me over in the bed and got on top of me. "Move." Carnell ran his hands from my waist to my wrist and held them. "Say you like it when I touch you like that." "No now stop." He started licking on my chest and up to my neck, I started squirming. "Say you like it and I'll leave you alone." He grabbed both my wrist with one hand while the other one snaked around to undo my bra. "Yes I like it!" "Good." He got my bra undone and moved down to massage my breasts. "You said were going to leave me alone." "Yeah but..you don't want me to."

Carnell was rubbing on my thigh while I laid on his chest. I keep thinking if those girls he was with did this too. Did he kiss them like he kisses me? Did he do the things he does to me to them? It makes me sick thinking about it. "Why did you do that to me? Was it honestly all about sex? I did nothing wrong to you. All I wanted was for us to work and prove everyone wrong. All you did was end up embarrassing me." He sighed and sat up straight. He grabbed my hair so I could look up at him. Carnell was always rough with me and I liked it. "As fucked up as this sounds..it took all that for me to realize how much I care about you. I was still stuck in my old ways when I met you. I didn't think I end up loving yo cute ass and now I have to pay for my bullshit. Whether that means, having a kid or losing you. I'm not making excuses for what I did, I just hate that I really decided to do that. And, I'm still very sorry for missing your birthday." He was being sincere, I could tell. I got on top of him and kissed him. The kissing turned into the black satin sheets falling off of us. The loud vibrations coming from his dresser interrupted round 3. It was my phone ringing, it was Patrick. It was Patrick! "I gotta go!" I fell getting out the bed to throw my clothes on. "Why?" "I promised Ken and Gia we'd meet up. I'll see you later!"

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If it's not that scene playing in my head it's when the Dr. confirmed I was pregnant. My Mother has been here a few days with me while I recover. Carnell's been showing up over here too after he gets off from work. He seems different, I definitely wasn't expecting that response out of him at the hospital. Carnell can be very mean and nonchalant. Not to mention he doesn't really like kids.

Knock Knock.

"Come in." My mother came in my room. "Carnell's here." "Tell him to come up." I could feel her sit on the bed. She rubbed my back. "Milena you can't stay in this bed all day. Come on, get up." My mom pulled the covers off me but I didn't move. "Self pity is destructive. The more you continue to put yourself down and put the blame on you, the harder it's going to be to get over this." "Mommy I can't help but to feel terrible, maybe if I would've known sooner.." The tears started forming. "It hurts Mi, I know it does. But the baby isn't coming back, there was nothing you could've done. You can't replace that baby but you do still have time to create a family." My mother moved a loose strain of hair behind my ear. She has no problem telling me things straight forward. She was a lighter brown version of me, I get my tone from my father. "You're only as strong as you believe you are. Keep that mindset and it'll get better. Now get up!" She said while leaving out. I huffed and got up and fixed myself up. I put on my sweats and a long sleeve v-neck. My hair was kind of wild but I actually like it like this. I walked slowly down the stairs.