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     It was about nine p.m. when Scott finally got out of his car. He had been sitting in the hospital parking lot for almost 45 minutes trying to figure out what he was going to say. Finally he walked through the doors and headed up to Mitch's room. He still had no idea what he was going to say, all he knew was that he had to apologize.

      He walked up to the door and Avi opened the door. He quickly pushed Scott out of the doorway back into the hallway and slowly shut the door behind him. "Don't ever do that again. They had to sedate him to keep him from going out to find you. He almost ripped out his stitches." Avi said seriously, "I know you have your own personal issues with guilt but you need to put them aside and be there for Mitch. He loves you so much so get over yourself and don't you ever do that to him again."

     Scott nodded with tears in his eyes and Avi sighed shaking his head, "There's only one visitor allowed now so..." he said walking away. Scott wiped some of his tears and nodded before entering the room.

     Mitch was sleeping soundly laying on one side of his hospital bed as if he was waiting for Scott to come back. Scott bit his lip to stop from crying when he saw Mitch's puffy eyes. He quietly climbed into the bed next to him.

     Mitch slowly opened his eyes and he immediately started to cry, "No baby please don't cry, I'm so sorry." Scott pleaded and Mitch grabbed his hand.

     He slid his ring back on Scott's finger and layed his head on Scott's chest, "Please don't scare me like that again. I thought I would never see you again... Please..." Mitch sobbed , "Please don't leave me ever again... please..."

     Scott let his tears fall as he rubbed Mitch's back and he cried into his chest. "Never again, Mitchie. I'm sorry baby." he whispered and Mitch nodded. It took him a few minutes to calm down and finally fall asleep in his arms.

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      A few days later, Mitch was discharged and mostly healed. Physically, at least. Mitch hadn't talked much since Scott got back. He just clung to him like crazy and often went into panic attacks if he wasn't in the room.

     He was terrified that Scott was going to leave him again. He mostly tried to focus on thoughts about Scott because he would break down if he thought about his father.

      As soon as Mitch got home later though something came over him and he couldn't stop crying. Scott picked him up bridal style and took him to bed.

     He cuddled him and whispered nice things in his ear to hopefully calm him down. That slowly started to work and then he placed gentle kisses all over he neck and cheeks. He slowly turned Mitch around so that he was facing him.

    "I love you." Scott whispered and Mitch nodded burying his head in Scott's chest.

     "Why, then?" He whispered and Scott looked down but Mitch continued not to face him. "You were going to leave me. You were going leave me to deal with my father's death alone." He started to cry again and he sat up looking at Scott who had tears in his eyes.

     "You were gonna leave me in the hospital the day after our wedding! Am I always going to come second to your desire to kill yourself!? Why do you keep forgetting that I need you! That you can't just fucking leave when things get hard and you feel guilty! Fuck that! None of this is your fault! So stop blaming yourself when bad things happen and help me go through it because that's what I do for you! If you had gotten shot I would never fucking leave you to deal with the death of your parents and everything else in a fucking hospital room! To deal with the death of me! You're life is important and it's selfish to think you could just fucking die and I wouldn't be phased! What the fuck have I done that shows you that I would be totally fine without you!? What did I do that-"

     Scott couldn't listen to Mitch start talking about himself like that. "Nothing! You did nothing wrong!" He sat up taking Mitch's hands in his. "I made a stupid hash decision without thinking and I'm so sorry. I convinced myself that you would be better off without me. That I was the one causing all this pain in your life but that's not true. I went to this bridge that I had almost... right after Alex died the first time. I had to be stopped by Kevin but this time I couldn't do it. I couldn't do it to you. I wouldn't let myself do it because I want to spend the rest of my life with you. I want to go on adventures with you and wake up every morning with you by my side. I want to surprise you with back rubs and cuddles and dates and kisses."

     Mitch had stopped crying and was now staring at Scott. Scott untangled their hands and held Mitch's cheeks staring him right in the eye. "I love you Mitch Grassi and I'm never going to leave again because I want to spend every day of the rest of my life with you no matter what happens."

     Mitch smashed his lips against his pulling him closer. The sweet passionate kisses turned into hungry needy kisses. Mitch slowly crawled on top of him kissing him passionately as he did so. Scott pulling Mitch closer as he layed down, yanking fistfuls of his shirt.

       Mitch abandoned Scott's lips and attacked his neck, their legs tangles together. Mitch suddenly stopped and looked up at Scott. "Are you ready?" He asked and Scott nodded enthusiastically.

      "Yes." He whispered staring up at Mitch's lips.