Light Up(zeroyalchaos)

Camatic

*Anthony's P.O.V*

buzz. buzz.

I turned towards my phone and shut off my alarm clock and thoughts from last night flooded in my head. So I just laid there for a second thinking..

Eventually I turned over to wake up Steven but I stared at him for a second.

Ok, I'm being creepy I shouldn't do that plus if he woke up then he would've hated me, I thought.

I woke him and immediately left the room. I was feeling a little down after last night and I just wanted to go back to bed and disappear so I didn't have to think about anything.

I just stared at my mirror and slowly brushed my teeth.

Why do think you can just be his boyfriend in an instant.

He probably doesn't even like you.

He kissed you out of self pity.

This isn't fiction you dumbass.

I set my toothbrush down and washed out my mouth. I felt like a sloth getting ready. I didn't talk to Steven and he kept giving me a puzzled face.

Once we were both ready we both got in my car. I got soaked from the pouring rain but I wasn't bothered. It was a silent ride expect when Steven jumped from hearing the thunder every now and then. About halfway to the school something suddenly something came to my mind, what was Steven going to do while I was at work?

"Uhh Steven I have work today so.. Here's my keys so you can go to my house while I'm gone." I turned and handed him the keys after I dug them from my pockets.

"Thanks Anthony" He said with a warm smile.

I forced a smile and turned my eyes back into the road in front of me.

In a few minutes we turned into the school.

We walked to class together and Steven tried to start a conversation but I gave him a forced smile sending a message that I didn't want to talk. He stopped talking and he looked hurt. I felt bad but I didn't want to talk to anyone because my head was swirling with emotions. I felt absolutely terrible.

All day I didn't say anything and I just stared at the wall or window in my classes. Luckily no teacher called on me. At lunch Steven brought me to the library a little forcefully. The librarian wasn't there so we were all alone.

We sat down in a corner filled with bean bags.

"Anthony what's wrong?" Steven said with a concerning look on his face.

"I'd rather not talk about." I said staring at the floor.

"I understand but its better to let it out." He said and gave me a reassuring smile.

I took a deep breath and began,"Well after last night I was wondering what even are we? I mean.." I trailed off hoping Ze would understand what I was saying.

"Honesty, I don't know what we are either... I'd like to be boyfriends but my parents would hate me even more." Tears welled up in his eyes and he dug his face into my shoulder. I patted his back and telling him it was ok.

"They don't deserve you Steven, you're way better than them and they can't change who you are. It doesn't matter because to me you're the best person in my life." He looked up and I smiled at him.

"Do you really mean it Anthony?" He said sniffing and wiping his eyes.

"Of course I do Steven."

He hugged me tighter and I realized that our lunch break was almost over. I knew that there was no way Steven could go back to class in this state. Then I came up with an idea.

"My mother will kill me if she finds out but let's get outta here."

I felt him nodding in my shoulder. I picked him and he kept his head in my shoulder. I looked at the clock; we didn't have much time before the librarian got back. I went out of the door that lead outside. I knew Steven hated get wet so I put my jacket over him and ran to my car..

A/n: I feel so bad not updating that much.. School has been stressful as always.