Bits & Pieces

Lost

I honestly don't understand people, especially friends. I mean, when do you start considering someone as a friend? Who are friends supposed to be? What are they there for?

When do friends stop being friends?

And have you ever just had that one snitch in your life that you're not really best friends with but they keep on 'stealing'(?) your best friends?

Idk man, life isn't looking good for me right now. I skipped school today because I honestly didn't want to look at all of their faces, I wasn't up for it. Also because I needed a day to study on my own since the teachers at my school don't teach properly.

See, I've got three very close friends. But we come in pairs. Like, don't get me wrong, all of us are close but like, I'm closer to Emily than I am to Saasha and Kanishaa. And Saasha and Kanishaa are closer to each other than they are to Emily and I. But all of us are still considered quite close.

But Emily got placed into a different class this year so it's just Saasha, Kanishaa and I. We sit in groups of six in class, with three tables on each side facing each other. Saasha sits facing me with Kani next to her and the Snitch sits next to Kani. We used to talk like usual but nowadays Saasha, Kani and the Snitch talk with each other more in an hour than I do with Saasha and Kani combined in a week.

And it kinda hurts.

I don't really have anyone to talk about my troubles to, except Ahjusshi. His name's not really Ahjusshi but I just like to call him that. He calls me Ahjumma in return. But I only ever talk to Ahjusshi about K-Pop stuff like albums and photocards since he's the only friend I have that's interested in that kind of stuff.

I don't like being alone. And I don't like looking like I'm alone so I guess I'll just bring a storybook to accompany me tomorrow. As boring as it may sound.

Whoever you may be, thanks for reading :)

Many thanks and much love,
Kyeom