More than just Friends

Chapter 1

This was only successful thanks to the help of ma good friends, the two and only hanaryu_chan n Yasumin_kyun for giving me the A+ ideas. That is all.

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Lumiere... he's a good friend of mine. I first met him when we were just starting school. We sort of just clicked I suppose. No one really knew each other back then and I was just a quiet kid who kept to himself so I was quite surprised that we even became friends.

When the time came and the rest settled down their little cliques, I prepared myself to be the lone wolf... again. But who knew, that I would be stopped one fine day, while slipping out of class and instead dragged along to recess while engaged in an actually decent conversation.

He's really sweet... a little too much for guy but I found that that was perfect for him. Personally I thought it was cute in its own little way.

But was just the beginning.

Two years of being great friends has currently given me something similar to a mid-life crisis.

Lately, I have found myself noticing him more, way more than before. I've always known that Lumiere was an impossibly elegant man or woman as the girls joke about (it's kinda true but I won't say it haha) but it's becoming preposterous. Every step he takes screams of undocumented grace, the sight of him just sitting there is already breathtakingly beautiful and there's that adorable habit to pull that strand of loose hair behind his ear after adjusting his glasses.

I can't help but devote all of my time thinking of him. I can barely keep myself from capturing his beauty in my sketches, doodles somehow always end up looking like him. I would turn to the girls to give me a random suggestion on what to draw, something to focus my limitless attention on.

No... no, I refuse to think that I am in any way attracted to him... he's a guy for goodness sake and my best friend, nothing else.

I continued to distract myself at other times thinking about grotesque images, a rather fond past time of mine it had become. To draw them I would afterwards, but it seems I can't help but wonder how Lumiere would react to such illustrations.

Would he cry out in disgust, in shock, horror? Or would he do something else... Oh just imagining him is enough to get my breath hitched.

Okay, I'll admit it, maybe I do have a twinkling of feelings for him... But it's just adoration. N...no...nothing else?...

Why, is my body refusing to accept that thought!? Why are my hands balling up in a disappointed kind of fury? Why am I gritting my teeth? Why am I holding back tears?

Why does none of myself react the way I want it to? Why can't I control myself? At this rate, I am going to break.

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My last thought was faded into oblivion when the droplet broke free from my parted lashes and it wasn't long before tears streaked my face. Luckily, I had excused myself in time and am now hidden in the most secluded boys bathroom in the school. The teacher won't miss me... the lesson was almost over and since it was going to be recess soon I had quite a good amount of time to wallow in my conflicting teenage hormones.

I curled into myself, atop the toilet seat in the last cubicle. I didn't bother to lock the door as no one would head here at this time of the day, or any other times at all due to the fact that it is situated the furthest and at the highest floor of the school blocks.

As my head hung low, tears dripped and blurred my glasses. This slowly built up to quiet sobs and before I knew it I was openly weeping.

Just then, the door to the cubicle creaked open. I heard a familiar gasp and almost at once at once I was embraced by a gentle warmth.

"Lumi.."

A cracked voice rung out in the eerily silent space. It shocked me that i was able to recognize him, given I couldn't see anything with my tear filled eyes. It scared me that he didn't respond and I could feel my pulse increasing by the second. My worries were all for naught just moments after.

"Yuki what's wrong?..."

I don't know why, but the adrenaline of being discovered dissolved at once and I broke down all over again. Probably worse than before.

"It's alright, everything's going to be fine... Yuki, everything's going to be alright..."

Just like that, he whispered these sweet nothings into my ear. I listened closely to his soothing voice and tried my best to calm down. I liked how he called me, using the nickname he gave me a year back and I just went with it giving him one as well.

I don't know why, was it the heat of the moment, but my hands went forth and took hold of him, pulling closer.
I felt him stiffen for a moment but it was gone by the next second. Tears till falling I kept my head tucked under the crook of his neck and breathed in his scent, strangely he reminded me of fresh flowers.

It was calming, especially so in his light cradle. While still in his arms, I felt happier than if I was not.

That's when I accepted that the reason why I couldn't help but adore him was in fact that, Lumiere was quite literally the light of my life.

He was the one I loved.

-@shiro_e_tan