Rhythm of the night

Chapter 1

Dear Kyle,

I'm sorry for leaving you. You probably won't believe me, I still left after all. But I really am sorry. I'm filled with guilt and regret and I'm missing you so much. Especially because I can never go back. This is a farewell letter, Kyle. I'm sorry.

Since we'll never see each other again, I want to tell you some private things. I expect them to stay private as long as I don't leak them myself. I trust you, please don't make me regret this.

My whole life I've been walking around with a big secret. I won't tell you that's secret; you would either hate me or not believe me at all. My whole life I've been hiding my secret well, I acted like I was the most normal guy in the world, which is exactly how everyone saw me. I wanted it to stay that way forever, that would have made everything lots easier. That would have made this escape useless. But it didn't go that way, and all because I messed things up recently. I became careless, didn't hide my secret that well anymore. It became that bad that all of you were very close to discovering my secret. It became too dangerous for me to be among you guys, especially because Woody won't stop supervising me. Sooner or later you guys would have discovered, and you would have wished to never see me again. I wouldn't be able to live with that idea, Kyle. It would have been my death. At least we separated peacefully now.

Secondly, I've been noticing things about your behavior. It could be totally wrong, it could be me making the wrong conclusions just because I want it to be that way so badly. I've got the idea that you're in love with me, Kyle. And yes, I love you too. I've been in love with you for ages actually. But how much I love you, we can't be together. It has everything to do with my secret. I'm dangerous, Kyle, and I don't want to hurt you. Just see our separation as an act of kindness from my side please. I really don't want us two to be torn apart, but it's the lesser of two evils. Please understand that I had to leave and don't be angry at me. Don't search for me, I'm fine. I found lots of people who are just like me, and I'm living with them right now. I finally don't have to hide anymore, Kyle, please don't make me lose that by searching me.

You have been an awesome friend, Kyle. I'll miss you. I love you.

Farewell,

Dan

I prewrote this in a notebook, so for the first time ever I double-checked my chapter. I hope the difference is noticeable, because I've been really doing my best.