Diary Of Alice

Brain dump 2

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 Thanks for understanding if you are triggered by anything that I stated please don't leave hate for I warned you that this will be a mess :)

I have learned through out the years I can be a little bit over dramatic or exaggerate a bit but I have a reason I swear. I never tell anyone the correct story when it just happens because I am still worked up about it so I normally wait a few days and then I forget to tell anyone. So that leaves me with built up emotion that no one gives a crap about. Ok so now you guys know why my storiES may seem far fetched sometimes. On with teh brain dump.

I am a akward person and I like to call my self introverted along with that I have REALLY bad social anxiety. So being who I am I need one person that I have to be with my whole life and go to when I need them. Here's the thing I have good friends but then there is people who I think are best friends but I am proven wrong many of times. The reason I need someone is because I have a hard time letting my frustration out to anyone. Which leads me to take out on my family sometimes......I will scream and get mad over things through out the year and forget what little thing set me off or I will cry at the drop of a pen. And no its not just puberty ok I was like this before. I save in crying ok most people can relate I hope. Where you have an image at school and you are soo afriad to break that boundery that you just hold it in. ever since I relized I will keep a lot of people by my side for many years I started to be careful of who I let my guard down to. *side note* ok remember Aaron? So I have a wide vocal range I can go really high and really low, while talking, I can go from a pixie to a demon reall quick and like no one hears that side of me. I make sure of that cause that's my hime side. Anyway I was talking to Aaron and I was not paying attention that we were at school and I was just lost in a conversation so I was talking to him as if he were my family and I started to quote something and when I quote anything,like my dad does, I go into a lower voice and I like limit how low I go in school but for some reason it was easy to let my guard down so I did it in my low impersonation voice and didn't relize until I hear laughter and "woah how u do that do it agian" I'm like no thank you and darted to class.
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Ok so little thing that most friends don't know is that someone asked me out and he is phyco and I didn't know this when I said no to him but you have to hear how creepy he is please hear me out. Ok so it's already akward because he asked me out on valentine's day I ran after I said no ,social anxiety, but I never really understood why people warned me away from him after I said told them this until now. ok so imagine just sitting in art class and out of now where you hear "I go to sleep to the sounds of car crashes and people screaming" mind you this is AFTER he asked me out. Ok correct me if I am wrong you would normally still want to be with a person even though they rejected you cause u can't just drop feelings in a day. So why would you sound PROUD and directly tell the person you fall asleep to the sound of people screaming and car crashing AND I HAVE A WITNESS WHO WAS NEXT TO ME HEARING HIM SAY THAT. Few notes to add because I am tired he also made it a point to tell me that the sounds of sirens sooth him along with that he practices summoning demons like a religion.

GOOD night time to rethink my life
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