The Boy Who Couldn't Sit Still

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> I am deeply sorry
A lot of shit happens in this chapter <

The day started perfectly fine. I got dressed into old overalls and a crop top I bought at the mall feeling pretty. I even curled my hair a bit. I woke up a half hour earlier then my alarm and was able to have time to eat breakfast with my mom. We talked like old times. It was nice. She told me how she loved how confident I've gotten and it made me feel proud about myself.

When it was time for me to leave for school I was feeling great. I texted Flynn to see if he needed a ride which he usually does and started my car. He replied two minutes later as I pulled out of the yard. I swear sometimes he waits for me to be driving to answer.

Not going to school today
Sick
Read 7:06 am

Oh.... do you want me to bring you your homework?
Read 7:06 am

No I don't want to get you sick
Have a good day Flower
Read 7:07 am

You too Fidget
Get better
Sent 7:07 am

I sighed throwing my phone onto the passenger seat before continuing to drive. Luckily when he texted me I was at a stop sign and no one was around to honk at me for stopping. I hope Flynn gets better. It's probably from not having a jacket every day. I knew he looked off when I dropped him off Sunday morning.

I turn the music low not really wanting to listen to the music anymore. What am I going to do? I have nothing to do for C block now. Hopefully, I'll be in the mood to read or something. I hate the cafeteria. I never sit with anyone.

When I get to school I sit in my car for a good five minutes playing on my phone before actually going inside. I won't make this day bad just because Flynn isn't here. I can do this.

I walk the front doors as confidently as I can straightening out my stance as I walk. The teacher by the door says a quick "good morning" and I smile saying it back. I notice a couple people staring but I shake it off pretending I don't see them.

"Lily," someone calls and I turn to see Ellen Frit walking over to me.

"Hi," I smile.

"You look great," she compliments me.

"Awe thanks. You do too," I assure her but she shrugs it off.

"I haven't seen you since that day. I wanted to know if you were okay. I heard about what happened," she tells me and I hide my frown.

"Yeah, no, I'm okay. Flynn and Athena were there for me," I explain.

"I remembered how Calvin used to treat you and how it used to happen when he left-" she pauses like she doesn't know how to continue, "I just wanted to say I'm sorry for not being there when I should've."

"It's okay, Ellen," I assure her actually meaning it. "I pushed you guys away too."

"I was wondering if you wanted to have lunch," she tells me and I smile a real smile.

"Sure. When?"

"I was thinking next Saturday but-"

"Lily! Why didn't you tell me?" Athena exclaims interrupting Ellen.

"What?" I ask feeling guilty of nothing.

"I just talked to Flynn," she says, "he yelled at me for bringing up Calvin. You didn't tell me you dated him."

My cheek turns red and my fingers start to shake. I didn't tell anyone that. Calvin didn't let me tell anyone that. How did she find out? I tried so hard to keep that out of my head. It's my worst regret.