I'm not who I was...[Mika/Tom Odell Fanfic] ✔️

So cliche but so right.

Entering the tour bus after the interview and a exhausting day i felt like something was missing.

Seeing Tom and Felicity snuggled up together on the couch i knew, i needed somebody; somebody who loves me for me and who i would love for them.

Because i felt so unhappy i decided i would head to my bunk because i didnt want to ruin their mood.

Laying down on my bunk my thoughts took over.

"I really want someone who loves me."

"David says he loved me."

"But he has a boyfriend."

"Just forget him."

"I cant, he was my first true love."

"But he doesnt want you anymore."

My thought were all discussing and all disagreeing.

"Uggh, just stop! This is frustrating!" I screamed out loud, more confused than ever.

After i had that 'moment' i fell in a restless sleep.

Waking up i felt horrible, like a train ran over me; twice.

"Wow, you look like shit!" Felicity said when she saw me.

"Well tahnk you for thr compliment." I groaned at her.

"Im sorry. What happened to you?" She said.

"Nothing. Im just not feeling very well." I said, the truth was i knew what happened but i didnt want her to know.

Before she could react i got off of the bus.

Because it was such a long trip and they wanted to give us some free time they decided to give us a week of.

At that time i thought it was crazy but now im gratefull, i cant perform in this state.

Exploring the city i saw it was actually really beautiful.

I went to Starbucks to grab a cup of coffee since i didnt have one that morning and i started wandering around, thinking about everything.

I really want someone to share all these experiences with but i didnt want a distraction either, so i was conflicted.

Being so lost in thought i didnt see the person walking towards me and i spilled my coffee all over them.

"Omg, im so so sorry. I didnt look where i was going." I said quickly.

"Its okay! Really! No big deal." They smiled, i looked up and looked right in to two beautiful ocean blue eyes.

I was stunned to be honest, he was beautiful and this was sooo cliche.

"No its not. Here take this." I said while taking of my jacket and handing it to him.

"No really, you dont have to." He tried to decline but i pushed the jacket into his hands.

"I really do." I smiled and he smiled back, wow his smile is so stunning.

"Oh and if i find this on Ebay i will hunt you down." I said, playfully stern.

He looked puzzled, "Why would i place it on Ebay?"

"Nevermind." I smiled, happy he didnt knew me, well thats what he said.

I hadnt even noticed we had started to walk untill he stopped and turned to me, "want something to drink?"

"Yeah, sure. Its not like i dont have any other things to do." I said.

When we were seated at a table in a small cozy restaurant i felt content, happy.

"So i didnt get your name?!" He said with a small smile.

"Thats because i didnt tell you yet. Im Michael." I said smiling, his smile was contatious.

"Im Jake, but you can call me J." He said.

"I like it, Jake. It suites you!"

He blushed, he seriously BLUSHED and i smiled soflty.

I liked him, only if he would like me.

We talked for what seemed hours and i had a blast of a time.

And of course it had to be ruined by a teenage girl and her stupid cellphone.

I already heard she was listening the news, without earphones may i ad, and suddenly i heard 'World famous popstar Mika spotted in restaurant with unknown guy! It seems like they are having a good time. Is there something youre hidding from is Mika?'.

Looking at the girls direction i saw she was staring at me and i smiled fakely at her, praying she wouldnt make a move to reviel who i am.

"Something wrong?" Jake asked worried, he was so sweet.

"No everything is fine." I smiled at him, i really liked himand i hadnt even known him for half a day.

We started talking again and i discovered he is from England and he goes to school there.

And that he even lives near my old high school!

But when i almost forgot about the girl i saw someone coming towards me; the girl.

"Hello, can i ask you something?" She said smiling shyly.

"Of course you can love." I said, terrifyed for the question.

"Are you together? Cause you make a very cute couple." She smiled happily from me to Jake.

"Yes, we are." He answered before i could answer.

I just was shocked, what?!

She smiled once again and walked away, i smiled and let out the breath i didnt even realise i was holding in.

"Why did you say that?" I asked, confused and curious.

He started blushing again, it was the most adorable thing ever, and answered, now shy, "well, it kinda slipped but i...uhmm....i dont know....maybe we could...uhmmm...like....like go on a second...uhmm date?"

I smiled softly and grabbed his hand, "i would love that."

"But before we do, i have to tell you something."