All Mixed Up

I can taste the sweet revenge

Due to recent events I am probably not going to school anytime soon.

I don't even completely remember where it is or what it's called...

Even so, I need to get revenge on Lukas somehow. My mind races, even tho he it hurts to do so, and because he's so nice Emil helps.
"I still don't think this is right, Emil." I say, seating myself on the couch in my house.
"What's not right?" He asks me back.
"The fact you've agreed to get revenge on your own brother. I'm fine if you want to go." I reply but he instantly opposed to the idea.
"You never got it back, did you?" Emil questions just above a whisper.
"Got what back?"
"Your knife Lukas stole. It'd be easier for me to just take it since I live with him-"
"And what kind of a friend would I be if I let you do that?" I hastily reply. He pauses for a moment before walking over to my side and taking my cold hand in his warm ones.
"A good one."
"Emil no." Is all I harshly reply with, refusing to let him get anymore involved with this.
"Kaia I can handle it." He pleads but I shoot him a look that makes him shut up.
"I said no and that's final. I've got all the help I need anyway." I go into the kitchen, Emil going quiet even though we could still talk from different rooms. When I enter again, he looks up at me, his eyes glistening more than usual. It's almost as if he's on the verge of tears.
"Do you like him?" He utters with a voice crack. He's definitely stifling tears.
"Who?" I answer back, sitting opposite him.
"The boy that's helping you. Do you like him?"
"What about Saskia? I'm not refusing your offer because I like Karma I'm doing it because I don't want you to get involved." I explain but Emil still seems to think otherwise.
"Do you remember what I told you at the hospital? You forgot who I was and when I explained myself-"
"You said you loved me." I interrupt quietly. He goes red, like, really red and he darts his eyes away from mine.
"I thought you wouldn't remember."
"I hoped I didn't." And with those cold words I leave, not even realising what I just said or how it left Emil.

What's happened to me?

Finally, after a week of plotting the perfect revenge, my plan is ready and so am I. Proudly, I march into the class, my attention immediately befalling the idiot that stabbed me.
"Lukas."
"K-Kaia?!" He seems to surprised to see me.
"I survived, bitch." I reply, sitting directly opposite him, not breaking eye contact at all. This is the guy, Kaia. The guy who tried to kill me because you accidentally liked his boyfriend.

Whoops.

"How did you-"
"Shut up." I quickly take over, by letting him finish. From what I gather, he seems strangely scared, but why? "What? You think I'm gonna kill you?" I chuckle slightly and lean back in my chair, becoming more obsessed with this darker side of me. Everything horrible weirdly becoming funnier.
"Kaia..." Mathias comes up behind Lukas, placing a hand on Lukas' shoulder.
"You don't know, do you?" I ask Mathias, grinning up at him sickly, chuckling as a plan slowly forms in my head like a puzzle.
"Know what?"
"Your little boyfriend," I stand up and glare at Lukas. "Is a murderer." The whole class goes silent, staring at the horrifying scene unfolding right in front of them. Who would've thought this school would suffer more than one murder.
"Are you accusing him of what happened to Genevieve Walker?" Mathias asks.
"Not exactly," I answer, inching towards the couple. Gotta get the knife... "more of...what happened to me." Mathias seems horrified but he doesn't move away from Lukas.
"What do you mean?"
"Kaia, don't!" Lukas pleads, generally getting in his knees. In a hurry, he scrambles for his bag and takes out the knife, handing it to me. I snatch it away before he could do anything more.
"Lukas why did you-" Mathias tried to ask.
"So Lukas, you're asking for forgiveness?" My grip on the knife tightens and my smile widens.
"Yes! Please don't do anything to us!" Lukas pleads but I laugh. His poor, pathetic ass is begging for forgiveness just like I did.

What a shame.

"So when I begged you not to, you continued to do so, right?" I ask him, taking one more slow step in his direction. I can feel the fear.
"I'm sorry, Kaia. Please." I crouch to his level on the floor and our eyes meet, even though he tries to avoid my deathly gaze.
"You're lucky. I'll kill you with kindness, Lukas." I stand and exit the room harshly, wondering what's to come next.