Through The Dark COMPLETED

Chapter 14

The next morning, everyone was sitting in the gathering room. They were getting everything ready to leave as they had to move on to the next tour stop. They only had a few more weeks until the tour was over, and they started press for the new album. Their schedule wouldn't be as crazy as the tour, but it was still pretty full. They also had to go back overseas for a lot of it and see their families. Julie and Amanda were deciding what to do. They were supposed to return home, but they did have more time off. Monetarily, it would be tough, but they could travel to 1 or 2 more shows before flying back to LA.

"JJ, I think we should stay. We could manage." Amanda said.

"I dunno, Amanda. It's not feasible to drive, and flying last minute would cost a fortune. And I'm not sure I'm ready to have Harry and Niall pay for it. Which I'm sure they would, but I'm just not sure I'm ready to depend on that yet." Julie said.

"We could do it." Amanda said again.

"Then stay, Amanda. It's not dependent on what I do." Julie got up. She was still having a hard time with everything that had spilled out during this trip.

Amanda put her hand on JJ's arm. "Please don't. Please just talk to me."

"I'm talked out. Right now, I don't want to be anywhere. I wish I could just climb in a hole. While I appreciate all the 'support', no one knows what it feels like to be me. What it's like inside my head now that everything's been brought up. I just can't do this right now." She started to walk towards the door.

Harry got up and started after her. "Julie wait, please."

"Not now, please, just not now." She dropped her head and walked out. She heard a crash and what sounded like things hitting the floor, but she didn't turn around. She couldn't. She didn't want to cry in front of everyone, and she felt like she was losing her mind. She went back to their room and lay down and cried.

Harry leaned on the table he just shoved everything off of. He didn't know what to do. He wanted to know what caused her to be the way she was; but now that they made her bring it up, she'd been completely off. There was no hot and cold; it was just nothing.

"What the hell is going on, Harry?" He heard Louis say.

"Nothing." He said as he pushed himself off the table.

"Right, so you just go around wrecking the place for no reason." Liam said. "You and Amanda and Niall have been quiet and like you're walking on egg shells when it comes to JJ. Don't tell me that nothing's going on. She's our friend, too."

"It's not our story to tell." Niall said. He put his hands on Amanda's shoulders as she started to cry. "It's alright, baby. We knew it was gonna be tough."

"I think they should know." Amanda said. "She will hate it, but dealing with it on her own hasn't gone well. I think it's too much for just Harry to deal with, and I know I'm not sure how to deal with it."

"Will someone just tell us already?" Zayn said.

Niall looked at Amanda who was crying and Harry who was still angry. "I probably shouldn't, but her last relationship was pretty messed up."

"Messed up, Niall? The asshole told her she was worthless and ugly and then beat her because she wasn't perfect enough. Messed up doesn't begin to describe it." Harry said throwing a mug across the room. He lost it. With her not here and her being more closed off than usual, he couldn't help himself. He thought having her tell him what was wrong would help, but it didn't seem to.

Liam grabbed Harry's arms. He knew he was angry and knew this is how he usually dealt with anger, but he could tell this was different. "Hey, you have to calm down."