Through The Dark COMPLETED

Chapter 59

Everyone had just finished up breakfast but were still gathered together in the banquet room.  Harry watched Julie sitting on a table talking to Louis and Liam.  He was leaning against a table by the back wall, observing.  He watched Liam hug her and then walk away.  After Liam left, she got off the table and sat in front of Louis putting her hands over his as he leaned his elbows on his knees and clasped his hands in front of him.  Julie was leaning in talking quietly to him.  Harry guessed he knew why.  Louis had just broken up with Eleanor, so he was dealing with that as well as Zayn's departure.  Harry watched as Julie cupped Louis' cheeks and said something to him, and then hugged him tightly.  Whether she knew it or not, she had a wonderful comforting quality about her.  He was glad she was talking to Louis, but he was quite caught off guard when he also felt that tinge of jealousy again.  With Louis?  Maybe she was right, maybe he was going insane.  It was amazing watching her transformation.  Louis and Julie had always had a sassy, sarcastic relationship.  Harry knew he shouldn't be surprised really, that side of their personalities was very similar.  Usually when she and Louis were speaking though, the conversation was quick and witty.  This time it was calm and emotional.  Once again just as she had read him, she read Louis.  She knew what Louis needed when he needed it.  Julie went from the one needing all the comfort and understanding to the one giving it.  He smiled and shook his head.  So much change.  No one could say things were boring right now.  He looked over when he felt someone lean back on the table next to him.  "Hey, Amanda.  I was wondering when you would find me."

"Yeah, guess you know me too by now, huh?"  Amanda said pulling herself onto the table, sitting next to Harry and swinging her legs.

"I guess I do now, huh?"  Harry asked smiling at her.  He looked down and lost his smile when she raised her eyebrows at him.  "Look, Amanda I know I was wrong.  I know that I was mean and took things way too far, that I took things out on her when they weren't about her necessarily.  But I can tell you that she's strong.  Stronger than I thought she would be this quickly.  She knew before I did what I needed.  Even though I may not have deserved it in the moment, she still gave it to me.  She was selfless and kind.  But she was also brave and confident.  She stood right up to me and called me on my bullshit.  When we just talked, this morning, she was calm, yet made it very clear how she felt."  He raised his head and looked over at Amanda.  "She's changing.  Quickly."

"Yeah, Harry, I know how she is.  She's my best friend.  I've spent lots of time with her recently."  Amanda said a bit annoyed.

"Yeah, I know that."  Harry sighed.  "Look, you may be angry at me, and I understand that.  I'm angry at myself.  I'm angry at Zayn. I'm angry at the situation.  I'm angry at some of the circumstances.  But I'm not angry at her.  She was there.  It's not right, and it wasn't fair.  But I'm not perfect.  I never claimed to be."

"No one said you had to be perfect, Harry."  Amanda finally looked at him.  "But there's no way you should have treated her with so much disregard."

"I know.  I was jealous and angry at everything.  I still can't figure out what Zayn wants with her.  Why he would have even called her.  What's his agenda?  She makes it out like his phone calls are no big deal, but right now I think it's a big deal.  Why would he call her?"  Harry couldn't help but question the motivations.

"You have no right to question her like that.  She never gave you any reason to question her."  Amanda said.  But was she being a hypocrite?  She questioned her in the cab.  She questioned Zayn calling JJ too.  She didn't know why he would have.  She knew that they spoke when everyone was together.  She had even heard them on the phone every now and again, and she'd just assumed Harry had been around.  "I don't believe for a second she would cheat on you.  She thinks you saved her remember; why would she do that?"  That was true.  Amanda didn't think JJ would ever cheat on Harry.  No matter what was going on with Zayn.  She never questioned JJ's love for Harry.