To Break His Heart

21| the storm

March 17, 2017

I look at myself in the mirror. Afraid. That's what I am right now. I don't know if, because of the fight and the slap I gave Hailee, the girls will leak the video. Not know what will happen is hurting me. Making me nervous and worried.

I wish they don't. If they do, it's just a cruel thing to do. For him... and me.

Its scary to think that at the end of the night today, I might have hurt somebody.

I'm crazy, right? They wouldn't release the video after all we have been together? I thought to myself.

I shake the thoughts out of my head, inhale deeply, and begin to apply my natural-looking makeup.

When I finish getting ready, I take one last look at myself and twirl in my dress smiling. My smile fades when I hear the knock on the door.

He's here.

I don't want to face him. I can't. All the time we have spent together, got to know each other, all the fun, will soon end. My lies will be revealed tonight.

Me loving him isn't a lie though. But what if he thinks it is? What if he thinks I said that so when he hears that I pretended to date him hurts him more? I pretended for a bit, but not all the time.

I never thought of it that way. That I could lose everything or gain so much. I could tarnish my name or make it shine. Depending on how people took it. But mostly, I'll lose him.

He knocked one more time before I ran to the door and opened it. He stood there, wearing his nice black suit with a white flower pinned to it. He looked handsome.

He stood in awe. His beautiful white smile formed on his face. I look down trying to avoid him from seeing me blush.

He said to me, "You look. Beautiful, amazing, gorgeous. I have no words Laura."

I smiled. "Thank you Shawn. I really worked hard on trying to look good." He still stood there eyeing me. "Shall we get going?" I asked.

"We shall not." He mocked me,"I'm still missing one thing." He got down on his knee and took out a clear box with a white corsage in it. He tied it around my wrist and then turned around signaling me to jump on his back.

"No I will not. This dress costed me about $150. I want to walk so I could see it flow."

"Fine your loss." He kissed me on my head before pulling out his hand for me to grab.

I couldn't help but feel so guilty every time he touched me and kissed me from my apartment to the lobby.

We exited the building and a limo awaited us. Shawn opens the door for me and I see a bunch of his friends and their dates along with Aaliyah and Rose, who was asked by his friend John.

I sat next to Jax and Aaliyah. Shawn started to 'party up' with his friends. I got so mad when one of the dates of his friends started to grind on him, but being the sweet guy he is, he pushed her off.

I continued to talk to Aaliyah and Jax. I was so happy that they could publicly show off their relationship after being in the dark for so long. And Aaliyah looked so beautiful in her pink dress that had a cleavage cut out.

I can bet Shawn gave her a hard time about the cleavage thing. I laughed in my mind. I can already imagine it.

We arrive to the hall. We all walk in together. I could feel Rose's eyes on me.