Suicide is my Choice

Chapter 1: The Beginning

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I cried and cried.I ran to the locker room and locked the door.I was at school but right now I didnt care.I took out my pocket knife and opened it.I shut my eyes closed as I rolled up my sleeve.I slowly touched my skin with my razor and pushed it.Deep into my skin as tears rolled down my face.Nobody cared anyway, I thought.

"Fuck everything, Forget life London." I whisper to myself.

Blood was already dripping down my arm as I cried.The floor below me was piling with blood, making a little pool of blood.Everything around me started getting blurry.I was loosing blood.Fast.

I ran to the bathroom and got tissues.I put pressure where I had cut myself.I already had 20-30 cuts on my arm.I cut myself when i felt I needed to.I cut myself when all my stress and pain entered my blood, so while I cut, the blood drained out.Relieving my pain.

My cuts were all messy and my entire arm was purple.Because of all my cuts.Yes, I did have a stupid, worthless, & ugly life. & I actually had a reason to cut.

My hair is long and dark red.I have layers and that explained why everytime I had a ponytail, half of my hair got released.Which is why I hardly wore ponytails.Especially in the summer..I DID have a somewhat emo type of hair but, i didnt really care, since I liked it.

I went to my locker and opened it.Since it was lunch, no one was roaming around in the hallways.Which was better since I was crying a puddle.I grabbed my bookbag and my textbooks and the homework I had.I wanted to go home after what i just went through.I had to walk across the lunchroom to get out of the school.

There I was, walking through the lunch room.

" THERE SHE IS !! THE SCHOOL BITCH" A kid yelled pointing to me.

Then people yelled curse words and mean things.

"Whore!"

"Bitch!"

"Worthless!"

"Ugly!"

"Skinny-Ass!"

Then it got worse.One person threw a milk carton, missing and hitting my bookbag.Everyone thought it was funny, since you know, they were mean.They all got the same decision, and that was, to throw food at me.My clothes got filled with salsa, milk, chicken, & every type of school lunch you can think of.

After I finally left the lunchroom, filled with food and tears, I reached the outdoors.

There he was.You wouldnt expect me to like a school jerk.But I did.Who was mean to me too, probably hated me.I decided to tell him who I was and try to talk to him, since you know, I really liked him.

I've liked him since 8th grade and luckily we ended up in the same highschool.Pshh, not like i looked into the high schools he picked and copied them into my application.Ok maybe, but thats not the point here.He was leaning against the tree, looking down onto his phone.

I walked towards him.He had dark black hair, brown eyes, not really the dream guy you would think of.

"I am London, I'm 16, and I have liked you since 8th grade." I say staring right into his eyes.

He looks up and says something anyone could have hoped.

"Haha, Guess what? I dont give a shit." He says sarcastically and goes back to his phone.

Gee, thanks Jake.I slump my shoulders after his response.I turn around and get a big punch in the face.

I end up on the floor, seeing as a girl with a mini skirt and blonde hair.Brittani.My enemy since 6th.

God, she's lucky to have a perfect body.Me? Well, I had the same but I didnt like showing myself alot. & in my opinion, I thought I had an ugly body.

I covered my face with my arms as she kept punching me and punching me.I felt a tear roll down my cheek as she stopped.

"He's taken, Ugly-ass." She says in a harsh tone, glaring at me. 

I had bruises on my chest and body, since she had kicked me too.I had a sore on my lip and a bruise on my cheek.It's my daily life routine.Getting beat up and getting my parents are dead.I havent told you yet.My parents are dead..So really, Suicide is my Choice.

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