Code Of The Nerd

What Has My Life Become

The last bell of the day went off, I packed up and felt someone tap my shoulder.  Turning around I felt a sting run through my cheek, "How dare you try and seduce Valfrid!"

I took a few steps back, my eyes never leaving Stella. She looked proud for slapping me.  Her light orange hair flaring everywhere.  I was shocked, my body was still, my mind blank, "You whore! Don't ever talk to him or I'll do something worse to you." 

"Go ahead," I mumbled from under my breath.

"What?"

I could careless at this moment.  Why did I ever start talking to Valfrid? Why did I let myself get intrigued with him?  Why am I getting upset about him?  Taking a step, I told the biggest lie, "Like I care!  Why would someone like me, Anahita Lynn, care for a rich, nasty, cocky, idiot boy?  I never gave a damn about him.  You know what he is to me?  He's my brother's best friend.  That's all, I don't give a crap about him, so have him.  You two can exchange your diseases with one another and fuck each other for the rest of your pathetic live!  Now leave me the hell alone!"

I grabbed my stuff and exited the room.  I threw open the classroom door to see Narh and Valfrid.  Narh seemed confused, but Valfrid was crushed.  His face showed no emotion, but his eyes were another story.  Some part of me wanted to tell him I was lying, that I still needed him, but my pride wouldn't let me.  Letting the part of my mind telling me I need to pay attention to my future win.  Brushing past them I could hear it.  It was loud and clear, if I was to say it it wouldn't even be as clear.  I basically heard the sound of my heart breaking.

*Later*

I was listening to death of a bachelor by Panic! At The Disco trying not to burst out into tears.  Narh went racing after me after that incident, apparently we were all going to go to the carnival, but that was canceled after the incident.  Narh's been trying to contact Valfrid, but he hasn't been picking up.

I shut my music off when Narh came in.  I watched as he paced back and fourth, rubbing his head with confusion.  I sat up and peered at the floor, "Narh just ask."

He stopped and stared at me with anger, "What was happening between Valfrid and you?  I heard the rumors, but I didn't believe them.  Now, I'm confused!  What were you two doing alone with one another?  What are you to him and him to you?  What have you done together?  Were you guys doing this for a while?"

"Narh, Valfrid and I had nothing between us.  We only talked to each other.  To him, I am his best friend's little sister.  We've done nothing together, so nothing could have been going on," I watched him relax a little.

"You never answered what he was to you," Narh kept his blue eyes trained on me.  I felt tears start to come up.  Even if I wanted them to go away it was futile for me to fight them.

Narh rushed over and hugged me, "I think I may have liked him Narh."  Narh held me and whispered to me that he wasn't angry, he was confused and I should tell him everything.  I told him when I first started talking to him, when he was about to have sex with this random girl, when we bickered with each other about our project, when I went to his house to work on the project, the time when he consoled me on Christmas, and when we went out to dinner on Valentines Day.  

As I cried, Narh got a phone call from his girlfriend.  I told him to talk to her, that I would be fine.  Narh went downstairs and chatted for a bit.  I looked at my bed and remembered the times Valfrid was spending the night with me.

"Night Love,"  that was the first time he stayed over.  I remember feeling nervous, if anyone walked in I would be in some deep shit, but I also felt safe.  Being wrapped in his arms made my body relax and and me feel whole.  Tears threatened to fall, but I pushed them back, "Hey Annie I have to go help Daisy get home, her car broke down.  I'll be back in twenty minutes."  I nodded and heard him exit the door.