F.A.M.E.

We Gon Be Alright

Deanna POV-

"You went two days without calling me." I snuggled under Sterling as he laid in his bed.

"Cause I don't have energy to fight Anna. You got a key. I knew when you were ready, you'd come over." He looked at his phone.

"But you could've still checked on me. I was sick you know." I took his phone and kissed his lips. "I missed you."

He didn't seem moved.

"Are you really still mad at me?"

He took his phone back, not here for me.

"Shep." I rolled my eyes.

"I just feel like you ungrateful sometimes. I came over there with dinner being a good boyfriend, because I heard you was sick. And you just never fail to be dramatic. Its getting annoying."

"I wasn't being dramatic Shep. I was going through something." I fidgeted with my hands.

He eyed me like he didn't believe me. "What Anna?"

"I'm pregnant." I sat up and looked at him.

He laughed. "That's not funny Anna. Quit playing."

"I'm not joking. I found out when I went to see Dr. J about my ear infection."

He jumped up quickly like a bug was crawling on him. "You what?" He said hysterical.

"I'm sorry I lied I..."

"No, no, no, no, no." He kept walking back and forth shaking his head.

"We will be okay Shep. O said he will help us. And that I just have to continue on the path of finish school."

"We are not ready for kids right now Anna." He said frustrated.

"I know but it happened and its nothing we can do."

He sat on the edge of the bed with his head in his hands.

I wrapped my arms around him. He stood up to remove them.

"This is...this is..." he shook his head.

"I'm not ready Anna. I can barely keep myself together."

"I feel the same way, but we have to step up."

He sat in the chair in the corner of his room, and put his head in his hands.

"Don't you want to finish school?"

"I can do both."

"Its not that easy Anna. With you in school and me gone half the year who gon watch the baby?"

"We will figure it out."

"I don't want it figured out Deanna."
He got up angry. "I don't even know if I want to marry you yet."

I stopped.

"I didn't mean it like that Deanna. I meant..."

I got up. "I don't care what you meant. Just know with or without you me and my baby will be okay." I brushed passed him.

He came after me calling my name, but it was too late. I got in my car and drove away.

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"Bitch he what?" Anais said angry when I told her Shep's reaction.

"I don't even care anymore. Somehow knowing O supports me and the story he told me about his mom, was all I needed."

"Listen, whatever you need mama, Auntie Anais is here. If we got to strap that baby on our back, while you go to one class and I strap the baby on mine for another, we are getting through. This is not the end of our lives, but the beginning. And we don't need Shep. We get us some jobs. I work nights. You work mornings. We got this. And we gon raise the best damn baby in the world." She said excited.

"You got this all figured out." I laughed at her excitement.

She turned on her stereo. Kendrick
Lamar's Alright blasted. She danced around to the song. Grabbing me to dance.

Alls my life I has to fight, n***a
Alls my life I
Hard times like God
Bad trips like "God!"
Nazareth, I'm f****d up, homie, you f****d up
But if God got us we then gon' be alright
N***a, we gon' be alright
N***a, we gon' be alright
We gon' be alright
Do you hear me, do you feel me, we gon' be alright
N***a, we gon' be alright
Huh, we gon' be alright
N***a, we gon' be alright
Do you hear me, do you feel me, we gon' be alright

We danced so hard till we both plopped on the bed out of breath. She pulled my head on her chest and kissed my forehead.

"We got this. Fuck Shep."

And that was my attitude from now on.