*Katys POV*
I pull one of my sleeves over my hand and wipe my face with it. This film always makes me cry.
“isaacs gone, isn’t he?” says Piper on the screen.
I pick up the remote from the coffee table and pause it.
“yes, Isaacs gone.” I find my self answering for her. I sniffle and wait a moment till I have managed to calm myself down.
I stand up and walk through to the kitchen.
This is when I regret moving out.
It’s too quiet.
I moved away from my family because of Tom. This was our house but now it’s only mine and I miss always having people around me.
I fill up the kettle and turn it on, leaning against the worktop whilst it boils.
I catch a glimpse of my refelction in the window and find myself staring. This isn’t me. It isn’t who I used to be.
I’m wearing a pair of baggy pyjama shorts and a hoodie. My hair is a complete mess because I slept with it up and haven’t bothered with it since and my cheeks are red and tear stained. My eyes have bags underneath them from where I haven’t been sleeping; I look exhausted and my cheeks are hollowed in; probably because I’ve lost the will to eat.
Most people say that the first thing to do is ‘comfort eat’ but no. I can’t face it. I haven’t even been bothered to make or eat my favourite things.
This is the first time I’ve had a cup of tea for 3 weeks.
I notice that the kettle has stopped boiling so i look away from my reflection. I lift the kettle off the stand and pour the water into my mug.
I place it back down and stand on my tiptoes to reach the cupboard. I cant reach it and end up walking into the dining room and getting a chair to stand on. I put one foot on it…
“let me do it baby, I’ve got it.” He says, wrapping his arms around me, kissing my cheek and retrieving the bag of tea.
“Tom…” I say, turning to look at him.
When I do, he’s not there. Nobody is there.
Great, so now I’m going crazy.
I get back onto the chair and retrieve the box. I get it down and put a teabag into the mug.
*Fox’s POV*
I push the doorbell a couple of times but there isn’t an answer. I knock on the door and see her silhouette appear.
“who is it?” she says.
“It’s Fox.” I reply.
I hear the lock click and then watch the door handle open.
When she comes into view, all I can do is let my mouth hang open in shock.
“oh god I’m sorry, I look like absolute crap.” She says, rubbing the side of her face. She looks at me; “sorry where are my manners? Come in.” she opens the door for me and I obediently step inside, kicking off my shoes.
It’s not what I thought it would be like. Everything is set out perfectly and it’s is all clean and tidy. “you’re keeping this place well.” I compliment her, shutting the door behind me.
“yeah, I like cleaning. Helps me take my mind off things.” She says. I stay silent.
I came here for a reason- to persuade her and to make her believe something, and for that reason- I’m very wary about upsetting her. I don’t want her to throw me out or anything until I’ve told her.
“it’s nice that you came by the way.” She says, walking through into the lounge. The screen is frozen on something. “sit down.” She offers. I do as she says.
“how have you been?” she asks, bringing her legs up onto the sofa.
“I’m alright but never mind me, no one wants to know about me. How have you been?” I respond.
“I’ve been fine.” She says, looking away from me.
“come on Katy, I know you aren’t fine so you might aswell tell me the truth.”
She crosses her legs, takes a pillow and hugs it into her body. “It’s been hard.”
She lets out a deep breath.
“every time I see him with her it makes me so angry at him. I mean, my feelings towards him haven’t changed at all and it feels like he’s cheating on me even… even though I was the one who cheated on him.” I can see her lip quiver as if she is about to crack any moment.
“you didn’t cheat on him.” I say, moving closer to her; ready to comfort her incase she does cry.
“I did though. I slept with Harrison and I spent every moment with Harrison whilst Tom was away.”
“yeah, you only slept with him once, right? And you were drunk?” I stated. She nodded.
“we kissed though. Twice while tom was away. He’s so alike Tom and I hadn’t seen Tom for so long and I ruined it.. i-I ruined it all.” She sniffles and I move up to her, winding my arm around her back.
“don’t say that. You didn’t ruin it.”
“I did. Look at me. It’s Christmas in 2 fucking weeks and I’m living by myself. I don’t have a job, the person I really, really love has fallen for someone else and is sharing everything else that I had with them. Did you know that I saw him earlier? I thought he was in my kitchen when he wasn’t actually. It’s driving me fucking crazy. I’m a mess and I’ve let everyone down. His family must hate me.” She says, leaning her head into my chest.
“I know for a fact that they don’t.” I whisper into her hair. “come on Katy. Get it all out; everything, I wont tell anyone.”
She fidgets and pulls away so she can look at me. “it’s just… I’m here and I have no one. Well, I- I have you a-and Harry and Jack i-I guess but no family and n-no Tom and it hurts th-that they don’t care.” She sobs, pulling herself back into my chest. “and I, I even have to deal with going toschool. How crap is that?”
“I didn’t know you still went to school?” I say.
“Yeah, twice a week I have English classes. You know, I have this stupid idea that one day I’ll actually get good enough to write a book. I’ve made a deal with myself that I don’t care how bad the book is, I will get a proper book published. Plus, I will make you read it.” She replies.
I let out a laugh. “only you.” I say, kissing her on the temple.
“only me.” She replies. “thankyou. I actually feel sort of relieved to have talked about it.”
“Your welcome. That’s why I came. Tom said he was going to come over and comfort you, he told me not to because he was going to but well, that boy is full of bullshit.” I say, laughing.
“congratulations by the way. On you and Zoe.” She says and I pull away from her. A few weeks ago I thought I liked Katy but then I met Zoe and she liked me and I started to really like her. I’m so confused.
“thankyou.” I say, smoothing down her hair.
I let it fall silent for abit and soon enough, her head is on my shoulder and small snores are coming from her mouth. I put pillows behind her head and stand up, walking over to get the remote. I press play.
Oh. That’s what she was watching. How I live now.
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