"fuck off!" she shouts at me, turning around.
"you cant leave me, Sara!" i shout, but the sound is lost in the wind.
I realise that whatever i say, she wont hear me. So, i stand still, clench my fists and shout at the top of my voice.
"You cant leave me because when we first met, i took advantage of you and i will never beable to forgive myself for that and when i got to know you, i realised how amazing you were and how strong you were and how lucky i am to have you! You cant leave me because althoguht i care about Katy, i love you. And i will never let myself loose you because of that."
I close my eyes and continue to shout.
"You are possibly the best thing that has ever happened to me and i love you. I love you more than i can even begin to say... and i didn't know that until now. Sara, i love you and i know how much i've hurt you. But i fucking love you and thats the truth. I want to grow old with you and have arguments like every couple does, small arguments over nothing, i want to take you for walks on rainy days and make you smile. I want to make you the happesy person alive."
"i want that too, Tom." she says and i feel her hot breath on the back of my neck.
I open my eyes, feeling my heart hammering against my chest. "how long have you been there?"
"Long enough." she smiles.
"you know that i meant that? Every word?"
"i do. I'm sorry, i was insensitive. I didn;t think about how it might make you feel."
"No, i'm sorry. I brought you here and i shouldn't have. I should have thought."
She takes my hand and starts walking. We walk for a while in silence, just listneing to the sound of the waves. She shivers occasionally so i stop, pulling my jumper off and handing it to her.
"no, Tom. You'll get cold, it's fine."
"I wont get cold. I was inteding having a different way of keeping warm." i reply.
She frowns and then laughs. "Tom, i'm not having sex with you on a beach."
"i wasn't talking about that." i laugh, "although we should do that sometime." i wink.
"shutup." she says, laughing.
"i was talking about using you as a jumper."
"not understanding you." she says, shrugging, a slight smile on her face.
i walk infront of her. "Piggy back."
she laughs and puts on my jumper. "fine." she says, jumping onto my back.
We run up the beach and up to my car. I place her down and her back presses against the side of the car. I lift my hand to her jaw and kiss her. When i pull away, i smile.
"i'm still so sorry for putting you through this. I love you so much." i say, kissing her again.
She pulls away again and stands on her tiptoes, kissing me on the nose. "as long as we can keep having moments like this, i dont care."
