beauty behind the madness | the weeknd

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2 weeks later

Rose

"You sure you're up for going out tonight, babe?" Jordan asks me, as he zips up my dress.

"Yes," I say. "This might be the last time that I'm able to go out." I rest my hand above my belly and Jordan places his on top of mine.

"Okay," he says, kissing my shoulder. "I still can't believe we're actually having a baby."

"Me too," I answer. My mind flashes back to the night Abel found out about me pregnant. He was so angry. I just don't understand why he was so mad? Can't he see that I'm happy with Jordan?

"What you thinking about?" Jordan asks now, bringing me out of my thoughts.

I shake my head. "Nothing," I say.

"You sure? You seem frustrated," Jordan questions.

I laugh. "I am," I say, groaning. "Sexually. How am I meant to survive nine months without sex?"

"We'll get through it," Jordan says. "Plus, there are plenty of other things we can do." He starts trailing kisses along my neck and I laugh.

"I love you," I tell him.

"Love you too."

A couple of hours later, I walk into Kissland with Zoe and Sasha. I hate that they keep choosing this club for our nights out. But of course, I'm not gonna complain and tell them the reason why I don't want to be here.

We pass a couple of tables and my head whips to the side when I hear a familiar voice.

Mine and Abel's eye lock for a couple of seconds, but he quickly tears his eyes away to look back at the red haired girl sitting on his lip. He starts kissing her neck and I roll my eyes and continue to follow Zoe and Sasha to the table. If he's trying to make me jealous, it's not working. He's just being childish now.

I groan internally when I see that Zoe and Sasha have decided to sit at the table opposite Abel. I feel him glaring at me but I don't look up. Why's he so mad?

"I still can't believe you're pregnant!" Zoe exclaims. She says it loud enough for Abel to hear. I nervously glance at him and his eyes are burning into me.

"Pregnant and engaged!" Sasha chimes in. "You really have it all!"

I smile at that comment. I do have it all, don't I? But why don't I feel as happy as I am when I first found out that I was pregnant? Is it because of Abel?

I look over at him now to find him kissing the girl. His eyes fly open as if he knows that I'm watching him and he looks at me from the corner of his eye. I see his lips form into a smirk.

I chew on the inside of my cheek. "I need some air," I tell Zoe and Sasha.

"Are you okay?" they ask and I nod and force myself to smile. I don't know why, but I just don't feel like having fun tonight. Maybe it's because of Abel. Maybe it's because I'm pregnant. I don't know. But then again, why would I be jealous of that girl in Abel's lap? I'm with Jordan. I love him.

"Um, you know what? I think I'm just gonna leave, actually," I say, biting my lip.

"But you just got here!" Sasha says.

"I know. I shouldn't have come. I don't feel so well, but you two have fun, okay?" I hug them and grab my purse. When I pass Abel, I feel his eyes following me, but I don't look at him.

When I'm outside, I feel myself being pulled back.

"Rose," Abel says.

"Just leave me alone!" I snap. Tears start running down my cheeks. Why am I crying? Stupid hormones.