beauty behind the madness | the weeknd

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Abel

The line goes dead. What the hell just happened? Rose sounded so panicked and devastated. I feel myself start to panic. What if something happened to her? I knew I shouldn't have let her leave by herself! I should've given her a ride home.

I try to stop panicking, since I'm driving. I start cursing to myself, as I try calling her again, but it goes to voicemail. What the fuck?

Deciding that I'm going to go to her apartment, I start driving fast. I don't care if I'm speeding, I need to know that Rose is okay. If she's not at her apartment, I don't know what I'm going to do. I have to find her.

Five minutes later, I turn up at her apartment. I get out the car, and start walking towards her building but before I can enter, I hear a commotion being made down the road. I start walking to see what's happening and then I stop in my tracks when I notice Rose, lying on the road. The parademics are speaking to her, trying to bring her out of her unconsciousness. Jordan is beside her too.

I quickly run over to her, heart thumping. "Rose? Rose! What happened to her?"

"Excuse me, sir, can you back away?" one of the paramedics asks.

"No, I can't fucking back away!" I snap. "What the fuck happened to her?" When no one answers, I look up at Jordan, who looks at me and then back at Rose.

He clenches his jaw. "She got run over," he says, eyes trained on Rose. He looks zoned out, not even blinking.

My throat goes dry and I look back at Rose, who is being lifted onto a stretcher and then into the back of the ambulance. I try to step forward into the ambulance, but Jordan grabs my arm and pulls me back.

"I should be the one to go with her,, since I'm her fiancée" he says and I ball up my hands into fists. The fuck does he think he is?

"Do I look like a give a fuck about who you are?" I snap.

He just ignores me and gets into the ambulance. I quickly rush back to my car and follow the ambulance to the hospital, gripping the steering wheel so hard that my knuckles go white.

Rose

I wake up to the feeling of pain all over my body. I blink a couple of times before I fully open my eyes.

Where the hell am I? When I look around, I realise that I'm in a hospital room. The memories start to flood back and my hand instantly goes to my stomach. My baby. I start to panic.

"You're awake," I hear a voice say from beside me, causing me to jump. I turn around to see Jordan. He rubs his eyes and smiles at me. He leans forward to tale my hand in his, but I quickly pull back.

"Don't fucking touch me!" I growl.

Jordan looks hurt, but I don't care. He's broken me. "I'll go tell the doctor you're awake," he mumbles. He walks out, leaving me alone with a pounding heart. I'm so angry at him. I could literally kill him with my bare hands.

The doctor comes into the room a minute later and Jordan follows. I don't look  She smiles. "It's good to see you awake, Miss Parker. How are you feeling?"

"Numb," I reply.

"And do you remember what happened last night?" I nod my head and my eyes fall on Jordan who looks at me guiltily. I quickly look away, feeling the tears spring up. She starts to speak again, but I don't listen. I can't bring myself to because I know that it's bad news - I can feel it. When she mentions that the baby didn't survive, I burst into tears. My whole body starts shuddering and I feel an arm being wrapped around me. Knowing that it's Jordan, I quickly pull away. I don't want him to touch me.

"Please leave," I manage to say through the tears. My voice ends up coming out strangled. When I hear the door shut, I start to cry even harder, whimpers escaping my lips. My whole body shudders as I lay on my side and continue crying. I hear the door open again. "Jordan, did I not tell you to leave me alone?!" I don't bother turning around to look. I squeeze my eyes shut so I don't have to look at him. He starts stroking my hair and I slap it away, feeling my blood start to boil. I open my eyes, but am shocked when I see Abel standing there, looking down at me, sadly. He looks like he hasn't had any sleep. "Abel?" I ask. "What are you doing here?"

"I've been here the whole night," he says softly.

"You have?"

Abel nods and continues stroking my hair and I let him. "I'm sorry about your baby," he says and I start crying harder. He sits on the chair by the bed and grabs my hand, squeezing it lightly. Abel rests his forehead on mine, his warm breath tickling my cheek.

"Rose," I hear Jordan say from the other side of the bed. When the hell did he come in? And why is he here? He touches my arm.

"Get away from me!" I scream. "Get out! I don't want you here!"

Abel puts a protective arm around me. "Maybe you should leave," he tells Jordan.

"Who the fuck do you think you are?" Jordan snaps. "She's my finacée."

"Is that why you cheated on me?" I retort. "You're the whole reason why I lost my baby! If it wasn't for you, I'd still have my baby!"

"What?" Abel says. He looks from me to Jordan and I see the anger flash in his eyes. "You cheated on her?" His hands clench into fists and he walks over to Jordan and punches him. "You don't fucking deserve her, you know that? She's too good for you!" He throws punch after punch.

I know that Abel won't stop beating Jordan, so I slide out the bed and go to him. I wince at the pain all over my body. I grab Abel's arm. "Stop, please," I say. He kicks Jordan at his ribs. "Abel!" He turns to look at me and his eyes soften when he sees the tears rolling down my cheeks. Jaw clenched, he moves away from Jordan and breathes heavily.

Jordan gets up, cradling his stomach. "Rose, I'm so sorry," he starts to say, but I hold my hand out, signalling him to stop speaking.

"Just go," I mutter. I take the engagement ring off and throw it at him. He catches it and looks at me, sadly. I look him in the eye before speaking again. "I never wanna see you again."