Dan Howell imagines

Dans pov (2)

Dans POV
*end of tenth grade*

"Hey Dan!" I Heard her say with her squeaky voice.
God she was so beautiful even her voice makes butterfly's come alive in my stomach.
I turn around and smiled awkwardly.
"Hi" fuck why do you have to be so weird Dan!

"You bed to hurry cause the bell rung three minutes ago" she laughs helping me with my books.
"Oh, Yeah thanks!" I said shoving them all in my backpack.
It was time to leave and all of the kids have left the hallways but me and y/n.

"So.. why'd you sit with the pops?" She said looking hurt.
"I mean I don't have a problem with that it's just– I thought you hated them..." she said with her adorable nervous smile.
No Dan! She's your best friend not your fuck buddy!

"I duno. They're actually nice." I said defending them. Why am I doing that? They're all assholes for hurting her. I can see the scars on her arms everyday.
"Oh- okay. Well maybe I shouldn't judge them I guess. " she smiled.
"I'm going to go ahead and walk home. I need to be there before mom gets there." She smiles backing away waving me 'bye' and walking out the door.

A few nights later I sat at my desk, I couldn't Do any home work cause I thought about her too much.
No dont get too attached. She doesn't even like you like that.

I ended up texting my new friends.
Danny- do you guys what to go do something?

Peej- We can go tp-ing That one fat girls house. What is her name? Malli? Whatever.

Chris- Yeah! She didn't let me cheat off of her science test so I'm down.
Who's getting the toilet paper?

Phil- I'll get the toilet paper. We still have some left from the last person

Danny- ok I'll be at pj's in 10

And with that I snuck out my window and into the streets where it took me 15 minutes to make it to pj's house.

As I'm in the middle of contemplating on wether or not to play sick and go home I see y/n has texted me.

What does she want?

Y/n- Dan can We talk?

Dan don't sound desperate. Make it sound like you don't really care.

Dan- Do we need to? Im out right now."

Y/n- please? It's important.

Now I'm scared. What happened.
Play it cool Dan, play it cool.

Dan- fiiiine! We will meet up at the coffee place ok?

Y/n- okay.
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I had to get out fast, I couldn't get attached to her. I knew that if I feel in love with her I would never be able to stop, so I had to break her to make sure I could get away. When I got home it hurt so bad. Why the fuck did I do that to her?
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*beginning of 11th grade*
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I'm joining the football team and baseball team.
This past summer has been the worse of one yet. I couldn't eat, I could hardly sleep.
My heart hurt every time I scrolled through our old texts and old, weird pictures we would send to each other.

I sat in class looking at my book thinking about if I should tell her, I want to avoid hurting her anymore than I already have. Maybe telling her will help? I'll go talk to her in the library. She always goes there during break.

I all of a sudden look up to see y/n at the front of the class walking closer to the seat beside me.
I see he sit down and I see her wrists as she reaches into her bag and pulls out her book.
I clenched my jaw. That was my fault.
I did that to her.

After class I make my way up to the library as soon as possible. I wait at the table she always sits at and pulled out my work so it didn't seem to obvious that I'm here to talk to her.

I hear the door open and look up at her.
There she was.
She sat down in front of me pulling out her books.
C'mon dan say it!

"I-" i start but back down because of the intercom. Maybe that was a sign that us as friends isn't going to work.

I walked down to the office stopping in the bathroom splashing water on my face.
"Dan get over her!" I tell myself.

And I never really did..

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Was that an okay for dans pov?
Im just kinda free-handing this book.
I hope it's okay. I'm enjoying it if I'm being honest :)
How are you guys liking these little chapter parts?

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