When you find your prince

Broken

It was still a bit dark when I woke up. Lando was still sleeping next to me but I was wide awake right now. I quietly stood up, made my way downstairs and then walked into the garden to get some fresh air. This night I didn't sleep that well. These thoughts from yesterday were popping up in my head again all night long.

Our relationship won't work in the future that was coming up. Non of my former relationships worked. It's just how it is when you don't see your partner regularly and Lando knows that too.

We had some conversations about that subject already. Although it hurt us we knew it is the only right thing to do. He will be in China again for almost 2 month and I'm going to be in the studio recording my album and then I'll have to promote it.

I walked inside the house again and got a bottle of water from the refrigerator. Then I heard some some noises from upstairs. Probably Lando woke up because moments later I saw him walking down the stairs.

"Good morning." He said and kissed my cheek.
"Morning." I sighed and turned around to face him.
"Is something bothering you?" He asked me worriedly.
"Lando...we have to talk." I said and walked over to the sofa. He sat down beside me and took both of my hands in his.

"I think we should take a break." I whispered while looking into his eyes that were getting filled with hurt.
"I know." He returned and squeezed my hands. "But taking a break does not mean break up."
"No it doesn't but it's the best for now." I said while a tear ran down my cheek.
"In that time we can still be friends, can't we?" He asked his eyes filling with tears too.
"Of course." I sobbed into his shoulder and hugged him tightly.
"I'll always love you I promise." He said and gently kissed my neck.
"I'll always love you too." I said.

After that we packed Lando's stuff together and put it into his car since we were staying at my house at the time. When we had packed all of his things we were standing in the middle of the living room holding onto each other for dear life.

I looked into Lando's eyes and saw that he was now crying too. My lips got closer to his and I pecked his lips for the last time.
"I love you. I hope we can work things out someday when that busy that's going to come is over and we have more time for ourselves." I sobbed while I gently wiped his tears away.
"I love you too Katy. In that time we'll still be friends okay and then we'll see if it work again."
"okay." I said and the he slowly eases his hand out of mine, opened the door and walked out. He walked out of the house but in that moment it felt like he was walking out if my life too.

I mean I told him we should take a break and it was the right decision. It still hurt tough. It hurt him as much as me.

I walked upstairs got into the bed and laid there for the rest of the day crumbled up in a small blanket that still smelled like Lando. I lifted the blanket over my head because I just didn't want the world to see how broken I was.

It was hard to know you did the right thing but still hurt another person and you hurt yourself. But there were just two options and we would've have been hurt either way.

Suddenly I heard the door was getting opened.
"Katy?" A female voice asked...Angela.
"Yeah." I said trying to sound as happy as I could but in the next moment I felt the blanket being lifted off my head.
"What's wrong sweetie?" She asked me worriedly and sat down on the edge of the bed beside me.
"Nothing." I whispered .
"Katy really I'm not stupid I know you for over 32 years. Now don't try to lie to me and say everything's okay when you're laying in your bed, rolled up like that and eyes that look like you've been cutting onions for 9 hours." She said with a stern voice.

For a moment nobody of us said a word but then I decided to tell her. I mean she's my sister and I trust her. She just always knows what to do.
"Lando and I are taking a break." I said while my voice cracked in the middle of the sentence.

"Oh dear." She said shocked and pulled me into a strong, comforting hug. "But you still love each other? You still love him, don't you?"
"Of course I do how can't I love him." I sobbed into her shoulder.
"It's because of your jobs? Because you won't see each other?" She asked, trying to fond the reasons of our break.
"Mhh." I return calming down a bit since she was carefully rubbing my back.
"It's the right thing you two did. But you said you took a break that means there's a big chance you're going to get back together." She explained.
"Yeah." I returned.

Angela and I went downstairs after that little conversation we had. She watched the notebook with me, the film that I always watch when I'm sad although that's not a good decision. She even cooked for me I mean it was pizza but she made it herself and I really appreciate that.

"It's 7pm I should go home now. Stella , Svend and the baby are waiting for me. Are you okay alone here?" She asked me and started to gather her stuff.
"Yeah. Thanks Angela." I said , stood up and pulled her into a warm embrace.
"For what?" She asked me confusedly.
"For being here for me right now."
"That's what sisters are there for." She replied. "If something's wrong just call me and I'll be there in 10 minutes." She said before she left the house.

It was like one year ago...I was alone...alone in this big house. I decided to check my messages since it was last night when I last used my phone. There were some from Tamra and my management, some from Shannon and other friend but one name caught my full attention...

John

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