Baby Boy (Joshler)

Sore

Tyler's POV

I woke up with Josh's arms around me. I weaved my way out of his arms and got out of bed.

I walked to the shower and got in. I began to sing.

"Here I come, come to you in the very clothes
That I killed, killed you in and now I know I'm alone
I walk to you, rain falls from you
Can you wash me, can you drown me?

I wanna be a lot of things, so much pent up inside of me
I wanna be stronger, too long I've sat here undecidedly
Planning strategy, half of me knows it's all just a fallacy
Failing miserably, drastically and then I crash dramatically
Into a wall I've hit a hundred times before
And yet I still ignore the dark red blood stains on the floor
And I'm back in front of you, Lord, with the blood on the floor
Is the blood mine or yours? Don't wanna do this anymore

Back and forth between being me and who you call me to be
You see a man free who thinks he has to buy a key
To a door but he can't 'cause he's poor and he can't
Fall down anymore 'cause he's already on the floor
And his heart is broken and all and this is his call
But it's more of a cry 'cause he will try nine times
To realize nine crimes but he has more than nine lives
So he picks himself up and keeps climbing for the prize again

Here I come again to you
Just to show that blood soaked through
Through my bones and all I own
Is there a way for me to grow?
I walk to you, rain falls from you
Can you wash me, can you drown me, please?

Every time I feel selfish ambition is taking my vision
My crime is my sentence, repentance is taking commission
It's taking a toll on my soul, I'm screaming submission and
I don't know if I am dying or living
'Cause I will save a face for name's sake
Abuse grace, take a aim to obtain a new name in a newer place
But my name is lame, I can't walk and I ain't the same
And my name became a new destiny to the grave and
They say the ocean's blue, but it's black right now
In the dark, on the sand, looking out at my crowd
Depression and drowning singing now the full parts
Of lightning reveals where the ocean stops and the sky starts
I've been told by the sky that the ocean I shall win
But it's hard for me to see where ocean stops and sky begins
A random strikes of light remind me of what is true
But right now the ocean's blacker than black, the sky is too,"

Yet again, I heard clapping. I peeked out to see josh standing in the bathroom.

"What the fuck Josh," I laughed.

He smirked.

"Can I get in," he questioned with puppy dog eyes.

"Yes, but don't get any ideas, my ass is sore as hell," I told him.

He got in and started to cry from laughter. Once he settled down I grabbed his face.

I kissed him softly and smiled.

I put my head on his shoulder and traced on his collar bone.

"Josh,"

"Yes," he asked.

"I love you more than you'll ever know," I teased.

"I love you more than you will ever know," he argued.

I gave him a sassy look and began to wash.

We got out and got dressed.

"Tyler get in the car, or we're going to be late as hell," Josh said.

I got in and he drove to our school.

We walked to our lockers then to our classes.

*POSSIBLE TRIGGER WARNING, (bullying and anxiety)*

"Come here gay boy," Brendon spat.

I ignored him and just kept waking to my 2nd hour class. He just wanted attention.

"Oh look, the little gay thinks he can ignore me. Very funny," he said.

I turned around and looked at him.

"What do you want," I said looking pissed.

"Come with me," he said.

"No, I will not," I told him.

I turned around and began to walk fast.

At this point I was terrified. (A/N shudders)

"You scared," he said with a pouty face.

I got to my class, and sat down.

Josh was not in this class so I pulled out my phone and texted him.

Tyler: josh

I waited for a minute. My breathing became rapid. I was having an anxiety attack as I used to.

I began to try to calm myself, but nothing worked.

Josh: hey, you good.

Tyler: no meet me in the bathroom.

I asked to go to the bathroom and left without another word.

I was walking into the bathroom and I began to feel tears swelling in my eyes.

He busted in with a worried expression on his face. He dropped his stuff and met me in the corner I was standing in.

"Baby, what happened," he asked.

"Uh-hm a guy n-named bre-endo-n was trying-g to get me t-t-o go outside with him-m," I explained.

"Did you go," he asked with a concerned expression

"No I didn't,"

He looked relieved, "Okay, okay, just breathe baby."

I did as he said and breathed, it was helping, but not all the way.

He embraced me in a hug.

I cried into his shoulder and he just tried to comfort me.

"I just got really scared," I told him honestly.

"I get it," he told me.

He was amazing. He knew me. He didn't care what happened. He wanted to be there with me.

The rest of the day went by slowly, but I didn't run into Brendon at all again that day. Maybe he convinced himself to shut the fuck up.

Josh and I rode home and fell asleep watching a movie after eating Taco Bell.

With all of today, we both needed rest.