50 Shades Of Gilinsky

Chapter 25

Ella's P.O.V

(two weeks later) 

Today was Nate's funeral. We all were dreading it but we all got up anyway. "Hey Tasha how you doing?" I asked as I walked into the kitchen and made some coffee. "Could be better" She mummbled and wrapped her hand around her stomach. There wasn't a bump yet but it was probably still weird knowing it was in there. She was only a little over a month. "What time is it at?" I asked. "12" She sighed and we went our seperate ways. Everyones out of it. 

We both got ready and headed to the grounds he was being buried at. Jack, Sammy, Madison, Jack J, a whole bunch of their old magcon friends, gang leaders & members, and some of his family were all there. I guess it was a respectful thing to do when someone died even if they were technically in your gang. Jack had been crying. "It really hit me this morning" He said as we sat down. Sammy, Natasha, myself, Gilinsky, Johnson, Cameron, and Madison made up the first row. Then some other guys that were their famous people friends and his family. The rest of his family and home-town friends were in the next row. At the back was the 12-15 gang members. 

"I know" I rubbed my thumb over the top of his hand while I held it. Madison glanced over. The ceremony started and  Tasha was already bawling. I grabbed her hand too. By the end, whatever makeup I was wearing was long gone. After Tasha and I cleaned up we went to talk to Sammy and Johnson but something caught my eye. Madison and Jack were talking. You could definitley tell Madison was pregnant now. Her bump was obvious. "We can do the test but you're the last guy I slept with. When you and Ella were on that break after you.. yeah. And I want to keep it." She said a bit loudly. My eyes went to the ground. "I'm not gonna pretend he or she never happened but don't expect me to do anything stupid like leave Ell. She'll be in their life too" Jack said. Madison rolled her eyes. "Whatever. We can do the test my next appointment. It's next Thursday." She told him and started to walk away. "Wait." he pulled her back "Didn't we use a condom" He said a bit lower. "It must've broke." She shrugged. "Don't you think that would be something we both noticed." He squinted a little. "I don't think so. It could've been a tiny rip. Whatever." 

My stomach flipped at the fact he slept with her after he cheated on me. I wiped some tears from my eyes. I forgot that Natasha and Sammy were having a conversation right in front of me. "I know it's hard" Sammy hugged me when he saw me wipe the tears from my face. "Yeah" I nod. I'm not even sure what I'm crying about anymore. Jack was making his way over to us. He coughed a bit "Sammy" He said. "Hey Jack, how are you doing?" Sammy casually pulled away from me. "Fine." He clenched his jaw a bit. "My girlfriend is moving back in with me so that's amazing." He looked at me. "Oh instead of your baby mama? Yeah Madison told like a solid half of L.A. it's yours." Sammy shot back. I tensed up. Jack couldn't even make a snarky remark back. He just stood there. I bit my lip and nodded. "Natasha, we should head out" I look up at her. "Yeah, sure" She half smiles. "Wait, why don't you guys come to my place" Jack grabs my arm. "Oh I'm sure you have more important things to discuss with Madison" I slip out. "Ohhhhh shit" Sammy whispers. "W-what, no" Jack fumbles over his words like his tounge wasn't working. "Yeah sure, I guess. Sammy you coming?" I ask 

"Of course" He smiles. Jack glares at him. "Ell, I already told you it's not like that." Jack says as he walks by me toward my car. "It was when you slept with her, after you cheated on me" I roll my eyes. "You heard that.." He started. "Yep" I angrily get in my car followed by Natasha. "Just come over. We'll talk" He begged. I just nodded and drove off. "Well fuck" Tasha mumbled. By the time we had gotten jamba juice and drove to his house, Jack, Sammy, and Johnson were already there. "You didn't get us any?" Johnson gasped jokingly. "Oops" I tried to smile but it was just kind of eh. "Babe" Jack pulled me off to the side "Let's talk. Whatever is bothering you" He slid down the wall in the hallway to the ground. I did the same. "I just- she's carrying your kid. Your first kid- I think. And I don't know, just don't you think the mother of your kid is gonna be- fuck, I guess, someone you want to be with? It just seems so- complicated. I just never wanna be in the way of you and your kid. This is something I can't control" I let my head fall back against the hard, cold, wall. "Let's make a promise then. If I do, stupidly, catch feelings for Madison you get to name my kid" He smiled and grabbed my hand. I chuckled. Fuck, he could always make me smile. "Deal" I lean in and kiss him. He smiles into the kiss. "I love you always." He said. "Always" I nod.