The Covenant - Uncovering Secrets -

Chapter Thirteen - Uncertainties

I frowned sitting up suddenly, unsure what had woken me but feeling a strange pulling sensation, almost as if something was calling my body toward it. Pulling back the cover I let my feet touch the cold wooden floorboards, a shiver rippling through me. Slowly making my way towards the window I looked out into the darkened sky seeing the light of the rising sunlight peeking from the horizon alerting me it was early morning. It felt like days had passed because so much had happened, as if the mad events from last night couldn't possibly fit within such a small time frame. Blue eyes stared back at me from within the reflection displayed across the glass, sadness swimming within them, the darkness reminding me of Reid's eyes after he kissed me, remembering the intensity of his gaze as he hovered above me, his lips pulling into a broad smile. I missed him. It surprised me how much I yearned to be back in his arms curled under the covers. I missed him more than I thought sensible for the fact we were still getting to know each other, still becoming familiar with each other but it felt right. I couldn't explain it. Reid. I certainly hadn't expected to develop feelings for someone when I moved here, heck I didn't expect to get to know anyone let alone make friends or something more but I had. I couldn't think about not being rudely awoken by the predictable arrival of Caleb, Pogue, Reid and Tyler, nor the fact I could randomly interrupt Kate and Pogue sucking face. I'd found somewhere to belong, something I'd not felt since I was a child with Chase by my side, not truly and now I couldn't figure out which I wished to return to more.

I had to keep reminding myself that it was different now, Chase and I, we couldn't return to what it had been like as children, especially considering the new discoveries he'd revealed to me but I still couldn't deny the comfort that his presence provided me or the fact that we really were siblings now. He'd always been my brother, the most important person to touch my life, even when our adoptive parents sat us down and explained we were adopted from different families but now that I'd found out he really was my brother, it still didn't feel the way it had back then. Something felt different. Something didn't feel right but I couldn't place my finger on what it was and any time I tried to dwell on it further, to try and search for an answer it was like my mind distracted me, making me question something else or focusing on the positive parts of having Chase back.

There was so much to process, things Chase had told me and that the other's parents had told me, a lot of which didn't line up or seemed to be fractured from fitting seamlessly together and I didn't know who to believe, who to trust. My mind was urging me to trust Chase, like I always had. After all I'd grown up with him, I cared about him, he was the only person I felt really connected to. At least he had been. But I'd grown close to the others each in turn. Kate felt like the first person I could see being a real friend. She'd been so warm and friendly to me from the moment we met, extending a hand of friendship I'd not felt able to accept from people before. Someone I could sit and chatter with about random items of no importance or confide in without fear of judgement; before at my others schools I'd felt uneasy and distrustful of girls, seeing how easily they could turn at a moment's notice and become vindictive and sadistic. Even the boys had managed to wiggle through my years of refined guards and distancing techniques I'd developed around people. They'd all been so willing to invite me into their tight group, offering support and time to help me settle into the new school. Tyler hadn't thought twice about offering to help me in my studies, nor Caleb when Tyler felt he was better suited to some subjects than himself and Pogue had been as easy and open to chat to as Kate. I'd been surprised by the brotherly affection I'd felt for him soon after getting to know him a little better, accepting his teasing and joking as I would have Chase's as a child. It felt wrong to be suspicious of them, of what their parents had shared but once again my mind reminded me I hadn't really known them that long, only a few months.