Taken

Secrets(37)

Becca's POV

I wake up to the smell of pancakes, did Shawn kill me? Is this what heaven is like? Pancakes?

"Morning Becca" Shawn says walking in.

"You killed him! You killed the only person that I had to talk to! You killed my only friend!" I scream at him getting up and slamming my fists on his chest, hot tears running down my face.

"Hear me out for a minute Becca, go sit down and listen to what I have to say you're gonna get no where doing this" Shawn sighs. I take a deep breath before swinging my fist into his face hitting just under his eye. His hand goes up for a second because of the pain before bringing it back down.

"I deserved that now go sit down" Shawn responds. I'm actually surprised he didn't hit me back, I slowly go and sit down.

"So I don't know where to start, you've been asleep for two days. I did kill Ethan and I hate myself for it, I was really drunk and had no idea what I was doing although that's no excuse. I also I um"

"What did you do Shawn?" I ask him coldly and rudely.

"I raped you Becca! I have memories from it I hate myself so much for taking that from you! I can't deal with myself anymore!" Shawn tugs on his hair acting like he's having an argument with himself.

"We're leaving this morning, I can't hurt you anymore it's a three day road trip back to Canada so you're only stuck with me for three more days. After that I'm checking myself into a mental institute here in California and I'm going to be out of your life forever. I did use protection though I remember and know for sure that much so there's no chance you can get pregnant"

I look at Shawn for any indicator that he's lying or that he isn't sure of himself but I find nothing. So he actually did that to me? I never thought even he would scoop so low.

"I know it means less than nothing but I'm sorry Becca, but I'm serious about being gone from your life. I do love you but it's better for both of us if I'm out of your life." I don't want him to change his mind on this, I'm going to try my best to keep him in this mindset for the next three days.

I simply don't respond to Shawn and I think he gets the message I want to be alone right not because he signs and walks out of the room. After a minute of trying to wrap my head around the whole situation I stand up and grab a few bags from the closet and I start packing anything that I want to take with me like all my stuff from before and a few things Shawn got me.

The thing I saved for last was my sock drawer, Ethan's note is in there. The note he asked me to give his family the note that I told him I would never have to give to anyone. He's gone and I can't change that although I would do anything to get him back. A tear slides down my face as I grab the envelope with the note in it and pack it in my bag.

I shakily go to my door and open it walking down the hall to Ethan's room, when I walk in I come very close to breaking down. I go into Ethan's closet and when I slide the door open I grab two of Ethan's hoodie's.

I look around Ethan's room a bit more and I make his bed, I don't know why I did maybe I'm just going crazy. But then I see a small shine and notice a small key that must have been stuffed in his pillow case.

I stare at the key confused, it seems like Ethan had something to hide if it was always that close to him. I need to find out what this key is for, I then remember Shawn and I walk over to Ethan's door and lock it to make sure Shawn can't stop me from finding whatever this key is for.

I set the key on the bed and start looking around, I first go through his drawers and then look under his bed and with no luck I go back over to the closet and start looking through everything. Then I see it, the corner of a book. I remove the blankets that were over top of it and reveal two books wrapped together with what looked to be a suede ribbon, the book on top was the size of a journal while the book on the bottom was about three times as big.