Taken

Home?(38)

Shawn has been extremely kind the last two days. We've just been driving back to Canada for the last two days and we'll make it back home this afternoon. I think Shawn's been so nice because he wants me to change my mind or change his, he wants me to stay with him.

I'm just excited to finally be going home, to see my parents again the only thing I'm not excited for is all of the interviews and questions I'll have to answer for the police.

That's another thing that happened I made a deal with Shawn that if I didn't tell the police about him he would leave me alone. That's all I want right now is for him to leave me alone for as long as I have left to live.

"Becca I need you to be honest with me"

"About?" I ask and Shawn pauses for a moment keeping his eyes on the road.

"Did you ever love me?"

"I did but things change, feelings change and new ones replace them. So yes Shawn I did love you but things have changed and I don't love you anymore."

"I've tried so hard to move on from you Becca. I'm crazy in love with you but I'm hurting you and I don't know how to stop. I don't know how to change my feelings."

"You need to find something to help you move on maybe a passion?"

"I've wanted to get into singing more I just don't know where to start" Shawn sighs.

"New opportunities will come and you'll be okay, everything will eventually work out. You may even find new love."

"I don't know what I did to deserve even a second with you Becca. After everything you still try to help me, I don't deserve it. You should hate me and show it, you should be yelling at me to just get you home. That's one of the things I love about you Becca you're selfless willing to do anything to help others no matter the cost." Shawn bites down on his lip hard before continuing.

"There something I've lied to you about, something I didn't want you to know about me because it would make me seem like a monster but I'm already losing you and you're my everything so I have nothing else to loose." I hear him take a deep breathe in "My father's a gang leader and my mother was kidnapped just like I kidnapped you, my parents seemed so happy and I was blind. I thought just because I knew you and loved you that you would eventually love me back. My mother was forced to act happy around me and was beaten if she didn't. I didn't know about this until yesterday when I went down to the lobby if the hotel my mother called me and told me everything about their relationship before" Shawn chokes for a second.

"Before the gunshot went off. I don't know if my mom is still alive or not. I need to get you away from me because I'm going to go crazy just like my father and if I ever killed you I wouldn't hesitate to kill myself." Shawn pulls over the car.

He isn't looking at me but I can see the tears rolling down his face.

"I don't want to be like him, I can't be like him." I can barley tell what he's saying because of how bad he's crying.

"Shawn look at me" I tell him gently guiding his chin over until he makes eye contact with me.

"You won't be like him. You need to find the girl you truly love and take her out on cute dates, sing to her joke around with her. Find that girl and stay away from your father you're almost 18 you can change Shawn come back home get your normal life back. You just need to try. Stay on your pills and get some professional help and you'll be okay." I reassure him.

"He'll find me Becca, I can't do that. I just need to get you home and safe after that I'll take over the gang and be their new leader. I'll get someone to check on you every year or two just to make sure you're safe. I'll never see you again and force myself to stay away from you. If it really makes you happy I'll start taking my pills again"