Delusion

Chapter 19.

The songs don't really relate to anything that is going on in the chapter, there just songs that I was listening to while writing this.

Songs for this chapter:

Arctic Monkeys - Do I wanna know?

5 seconds od summer - She Looks so Perfect

Lupe Fiasco - Battle Scars

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I rush to gather my things, stumbling around because im still drunk. I probably look like a complete mess right now. But the biggest thing to worry about is Harry and his mom. He wont explain to me what the people on the phone said to him. Im so worried for her and Harry.

 We head down the stairs, and go out to the car. Harry is driving because he didn't have anything to drink tonight.

He crazily drives down the rode. Stopping suddenly at stop lights, making me jerk forward in my seat.

"Sorry," He mumbles.

I put my hand on his thigh, making him flinch slightly, but he then relaxed. I rub in a up and down motion. Im not trying to do it in a sexual way but in a friendly way. Im sure that he knows that.

We soon arrived at the hospital. He gets out waiting for me. I quickly get out and he starts jogging toward the entrance.

"Anne Styles!" He practically screams to the lady behind the desk.

"You may go -," Shes cut off by Harry running to her room.

I run after Harry to her room. When we get into her room the sight is so horrifying. His once beautiful mom is now so pale and has a bandana wrapped around her head. She slowly opens her eyes looking over at us. I can feel tears brimming in my eyes, but I hold them back smiling at her.

"H-harry I don't think im going to make it much longer," Her mom states, taking in sharp breaths.

"Mom don't say that. Your going to be okay," He said as he grabs her hand.

I sit down in the chair beside her. Its killing me to see her like this. I barely know her but from just barely talking to her she seems like a great person. And poor Harry. He seems so damaged, he does not deserve to go through this. I mean he can be a jerk sometimes but still he doesn't deserve this.

"Mom just please stay with me okay. I cant loose you and dad." He sobs, putting his head on her arm.

"It will be okay Harry. Your a strong young man." She weakly replies.

I hear quiet sobs coming from Harry. He seems so hurt. Usually he just pushes me away when he gets emotional. I don't know if I should  go over to him and rub his back and tell him its going to be okay, or just leave him alone and give him the space he needs.

I decide on not doing that.

I grab Anne's hand and give her a gentle squeeze. She turns her head in my direction and gives me a smile.

"Your such a beautiful young girl Lacey. You don't really seem like Harry's type which is a good thing. Your a good girl for him," She smiles, tears running down her face.

I nod my head, standing up and giving her a tight hug. She weakly wraps her arms around me. Its nice to hug a women again. She reminds me so much of my mother. So kind and generous. She kisses my forehead as I pull back. Harry goes up and kisses her cheek, repeatedly telling her how much he loves her.

*2 hours later*

"No! She cant be gone! She cant leave me, no!" Harry screams at the nurses.

By now crying so hard. Anne's line went flat. The beeping sound stopped. Harry freaked out slamming his fists against the stand beside her bed. He was totally freaking out.

"Harry stop. Shes gone, theres nothing you can do now," I sweetly say between sobs. 

"No! She cant be!" He screams.

I have no idea what to do except hug him. I wrap my arms tightly around his waist, laying my head on his chest.

"Its going to be okay,"

Harry's POV

The feeling of her small arms wrapped around me calms me down. I cant believe my mum is actually gone. She was the closest thing I had when my dad left. I treated my mom like shit sometimes and now I realized how fucked up I was to treat her like that. She was always there for me but I pushed her away like I did to everyone.

I wrap my arms around her, nuzzling my head in the crook of her neck. I don't usually like affection but ill make a acceptation to her. She makes me feel like a better person even though I know I cant change.

We stay in this position for a while until I finally let go. I need to get out of this fucking place until I go fucking insane. When I get back home im going to have a few drinks. I need to get everything off my mind. And it seems like alcohol surely helps me with that.

I lead her through the hallways of the hospital and down and out of the building. I never want to be near or go to this hospital again. So much shit happened in this god damn hospital.

I didn't realize its 4 in the morning so I guess the whole drinking thing is off. As much as I want to take Lacey home with me, I cant. I cant get close to her. Ill just end up hurting her in the future. Shes too fragile to get hurt, shes been through so much. I just need to end things. Its going to be easy though because im ending something that didn't even happen. We never became a thing. I didn't even want to start anything. Relationships aren't my kind of things. They never work out because I end up doing something stupid. I was only in one relationship before and it sure as hell didn't work out.

We arrive at the apartment building, and get out, making our way to the apartments. When we get there I stop her in front of her apartment.

"Thanks for um being there with me tonight," I awkwardly say, rubbing the back of my neck.

"Of course Harry. Im just so sorry about everything that happened. She didn't deserve to pass away, and you sure as hell don't deserve to go through this," She says, making me smile. I don't know how she can put this effect on me but she can.

I pull her close to me and wrap my arms around her. I usually never show my 'soft' side to anyone except my mum. I mean I don't really have one but Lacey definitely brings the soft out in me. I pull away and grin down at her. I watch as she gets on her tippy toes an places a lingering kiss on my cheek. I cup her jaw, rubbing my thumb a crosses her cheek. I lean down and plant a soft kiss on her lips. I pull away and turn around walking back to my apartment.

When I get to my apartment I quickly go to my bedroom and sit down. I should of fucking ended it right there. I cant keep kissing her. I don't want to lead her on and then hurt her. But im just so attracted to her. He innocence possesses me. It takes over. Ive always been attracted to girls who I could fuck for the night and then leave in the morning, never seeing them again. But Lacey, shes different. I tell myself that I need to stay away but I just cant.

I pull my shirt over my head, with my jeans and get into my bed. I really need some sleep or my thoughts will get the best of me. I toss and turn before finally getting comfortable. The last time I look at the clock it was 6:45 before I finally fell asleep.

Omgg this chapter was so emotional! Please, please don't be mad at me for making Anne pass away. Its just a story so its not real(: Anddd I thought I would thank you guys for reading my story! I have almost 300 read so far. Yes, I know that's not a lot compared to other wonderful stories, but its big to me. I work so hard to keep a schedule and update every 2 days, if not every night. I work very, very hard writing these chapter for you guys. I really hope you like them! Also happy Valentines Day!! You guys are all my valentines! Ily all so much! You have no idea. This chapter literally took me 2 days to write to be honest. Once again please don't be upset with me. This is just fictional so none of this really happened. Goodnight lovelies xx. <3