Monster: Sequel To "Relax..."

20: Not Dreaming

Slowly, but surely he's beginning to trust me. He comes to my room every morning, and I'm pretty sure he's being lenient on whether or not he's going to lock the door. In the morning breakfast is, how do you say, awkward. Not much conversation flows around anymore, especially when I'm around. I think they've caught on that I'm afraid of them still. And that they can't change that anytime soon.

They've noticed that I've been getting closer to Kai, but none of them say anything. I think Suho is even somewhat, proud of him. Of us both it seems. I don't know how much longer I can be here. The voice in my head and I haven't talked since the morning of the whole incident.

The time alone in my room is dedicated to excessive bathing, sleeping and thinking.

Sometimes I feel as though I'm going insane.

There's a quiet knock at my door, and as I call out a welcome it opens to reveal D.O. I frown in confusion, as its dinner time and Kai isn't here. "Where's Kai?" I ask softly, getting out of bed. D.O shrugs, silently motioning for me to follow him. Something doesn't feel right.

I follow him regardless, staying in the eerie silence with him. When we arrive at the dining room, everyone is wearing identical solemn expressions, adding to the factor of my anxiety and wariness. But what tops it off is the empty chairs to my left and across from me.

Kai and Lay.

Kai and I always sit beside each other, and Lay sits across from me.

"Where is Kai? And Lay?" I ask again, looking at Suho. Suho casually avoids my gaze, signalling for the food to be brought out. I frown at the steaming food in front of me, my appetite no where to be found. "Where's Kai and Lay?" I repeat.

"If you didn't already get a fucking answer, do you think you're about to get one now?" Sehun growls, making me glare at him. "Well maybe you didn't fucking hear me, so I'll say it again; where the fuck, is Kai and Lay?!" I yell. Sehun stands and slams his hands down on the table, leaning towards me. Chanyeol and Suho both stand as well, Chanyeol grabbing onto Sehun's arm.

"Sehun, I do not need this right now! Sit down, shut up, and eat your fucking dinner!" Suho booms, making me flinch in my chair. Sehun stares at his leader on shock, freezing on the spot. Chanyeol immediately follows the orders of his elder, taking his seat and staring at his food. Sehun slowly copies Chanyeol's actions, and once everyone is eating again Suho sits as well.

Everyone stays silent, and I find it easier to do the same.

Once we're all finished with our dinner, Suho whispers something to D.O who nods, walking out a different door. He walls over to me, smiling tiredly. "I'll be taking you back today," he says softly. I nod in understanding, walking the regular route with him.

"Suho?" I ask as we walk. He hums softly in response, so I continue. "Where's Kai and Lay? Are they okay?" I ask gently. He stiffens a little, before continuing his fluid-like walk." They're fine, you don't have to worry about them," he says, and he sounds even more tired. I start to feel a little bad for asking.

"Alright. Are you feeling well?" I ask, since now that I'm closer to him I can see heavy bags under his eyes. He offers me another one of his tired smiles. "I'll be fine, don't worry about me," he says, as we arrive at my door. "Goodnight Moon," he says, turning to leave. "Suho?" I call again. He turns to me, waiting. "Eat something. I haven't seen you eat for days," I say, opening the door and slipping inside.

I close the door myself, jiggling the knob. Locked.

I sigh deeply, going to the closet for a tank top and some pajama shorts, getting in the shower. As I get into the shower, I begin to think. What I said wasn't wrong. Suho makes sure everyone else is eating, but he never eats himself. I have a horrible feeling something bad is happening, or happened.