My Bad Boy

Chapter 10

"Aren't you going home yet?" I asked him.

"You want me to?" He asks me back.

Tingnan mo tong taong to, ako yung nagtanong eh. Hanggang ngayon hindi ko pa din lubos na maisip na ako yung humalik sa kanya. Ako yung eager na mahalikan sya. After nun, hindi ko alam if ano yung gagawin kong pagtatakip sa mukha ko, nahihiya ako na ako pa talaga ang humila sa kanya sa damit and I can see how crumpled his shirt is.

"May pasok tayo bukas." I said not looking at him. I wanted him to stay, but i know it's not possible. Wala akong aircon sa kwarto. I don't think makakatulog sya dito.

"Okey, I'll go." He said getting the keys on the center table.

I stand up and follow in the front door.

"I'm gonna miss you all night." He said and hugged me tightly. 

"I'll miss you too." I said in a shy tone.

"My little baby is shy." He tease me.

"Umuwi ka na nga." I said forcing him to go to his car.

I wave good bye to him. This day was so amazing. I just can't believe kami na. I afraid kung ano ang mararamdaman ko pag nasa opisina kami. Would he introduce me to the rest of the team? How can we walk together, I mean, literally he still my boss and I'm his secretary. I'm excited to go to work....

I had a beautiful dream.....and suddenly my alarm rings.

"Good morning Ms. Tania." I said while holding a cup of coffee for my boyfriend. Owww. it makes me high.

"Wow, someone is in good mood today." Ms. Tania teases me.

"Just had a good sleep." I said with a shy smile. I don't know if I have to tell her about Randolf, but of course I want him to be the one to tell them soon....maybe soon.

I heard the elevator ting, it means someone will enter and I can see him walking outside the elevator.

All smiles for me, when it suddenly fade when I saw someone one his side. Angie. 

Naramdaman ko ang pag iwas nya sa mga mata ko. He just greeted us back and continue walking to his office without glancing at us.

Wow, way to have a good morning right.

I follow him in his office only to find out that the office is locked. Okey, nag locked pa talaga kayo ha.

I'm getting annoyed at this, kagabi lang sobrang sweet ha. May pa I will miss you all night pa syang malalaman tapos makikita ko may naka angkla sa braso nya umagang umaga. Tapos ang kapal ng mukha nyang mag locked ng pinto.

I texted him

TO : RAM

Why is your office locked? what's going on?

I try to wait and it took five f*cking minutes for him to reply.

FROM: RAM

I'm in a meeting.

That's all?. That's all he can say.

TO: RAM

Kailangan talagang ilock?, your coffee is here though. 

I've waited how many minutes pero walang reply mula sa kanya. Okey I guess mag iisang oras na sila sa loob. Kung pinagseselos nya ako, well ang galing nya lang ha. Ang galing nga lang sabihin na mamimiss nya ako tapos ngayon nandito sya sa loob ng opisina para sa isang meeting at nakuha pa talaga nilang maglocked ng pinto.

I tried to focus with work kahit na hindi gumagana ang utak ko. I need a distraction kasi baka makalimutan kong boss ko pa din sya at maibalibag ko sa kanya ang kape nya once lumabas na sila ng opisina ng haliparot na yon!. Bad trip ako....subukan nya lang talagang nya lang talagang deadmahin ito at hindi ipaliwanag, makikita nya talaga ang hinahanap nya.

It's almost lunch when  I heard the door opened. I didn't even bother to look at them ng sabay silang lumabas sa opisina nya. I try to click some email para magmukhang busy.

"I will be out for lunch today." He said in a cold tone.

I didn't bother to look at him. I just nod and continue what I am doing. It breaks me...na parang balewala ako sa kanya. Ni hindi man lang ba nya ako tatanungin kung saan ako maglulunch.

I heard him sigh. But then hindi na sya nagsalita at lumabas na ng opisina. 

So maybe I was wrong. Maybe what we have is not a relationship. Maybe I am just a fling? Ouch! it hurts me a lot. I may not be the best girl for him I can see that very clearly pero sana wag naman nya akong paglaruan.

I heard my phone beep for a message but I didn't bother to read it. I just turn it off para hindi na lang din ako madistract sa mga ginagawa ko. 

After a long day. I went home alone. RAM didn't show up after his lunch with that girl, or maybe his girl. Who am I kidding right. He has the guts to have every girl he wants. I am just an ordinary girl and I don't think I am even worth his time. But then again after ng isang araw ng pandedeadma nya sa akin nandito sya ngayon sa harap ng apartment ko. 

I tried to ignore his presence and walk to my doorstep.

"Hey." He said trying to hold my hand.

"Where have you been? I've been calling you since this afternoon pero naka off ang cellphone mo." He said trying to hold me.

"Lowbat." I just said and went inside the apartment.

I don't want a conversation with him right now. My heart is aching bad. 

"I'm sorry about this morning. I just need that meeting with Angie to finalize our presentation with an important investor." He said trying to explain his side.

"It's okey." I just shrugged.

I went to the kitchen to get some water. Nakasunod lang sya sa akin habang umiinom. Gusto ko sanang magluto kasi gutom na ako but I doubt kung makakakain ako kung hindi sya aalis sa harapan ko. Hindi ba nya nararamdaman na I'm too pissed to talk to him.

"Hindi mo ba talaga ako kakausapin?" He said still looking at me.

Hindi ko sya sinagot. I try to look at the freezer kung ano ang pwede kong lutuin para sa dinner ko. 

"Fine, it seems you're not in mood. Maybe I should go." He said and leave me in the kitchen. I just heard the door closing and his car leaving my apartment. 

Hindi ko mapigilang hindi mapaiyak. So ganito lang ba kami. Hindi man lang ba sya mag eefort na suyuin ako. Well sabagay, sino ba naman ako para suyuin di ba. Because of that, nawalan ako ng gana pang magdinner I just went to my room and lie down my bed, feeling really pained.