My Bad Boy

Chapter 29

Yes, I know I need to be calm. Pero paano ko gagawin yun kung sa bawat pag angat ng ulo ko, makikita ko ang pagtitig nya sa akin. Halos wala na akong naintindihan sa lahat ng sinasabi ng nag pe present sa harap. Hindi ko mapigilan na mapapikit ng lihim. Why does he keep on staring? Alam na alam nya na ayokong tinititigan nya ako. Nananadya ba talaga ang lalaking ito? Halos maihi na ako sa kaba dahil sa bawat pag angat ko ng tingin nagkakasalubong kami at nakikita ko ang sakit sa mga mata nya. No. Hindi yun sakit kundi galit. Dahil ba iniwan ko sya? Pero hindi naman ako ang pinili nya hindi ba? Bakit ganyan syang makatingin ngayon, na para bang napakalaki ng kasalanan ko sa kanya.

"As I was saying, Ms. Faye Martinez will take charge of the Designing Team since Ms. Gatmaitan had an emergency leave, but rest assured that we can still come up with a good result from her team." Napalingon ako kay Adrian ng nabanggit nya ang pangalan ko.

"How sure are we?" He said suddenly. Hindi ko mapigilan mapalingon sa kanya. But then he looked at Adrian as he speak.

"What do you mean RAM?" Adrian asked.

"What I mean is, she lack experience, she's a beginner right? How can we be so sure that she'll give us the best result?" He said still looking at Adrian.

This man is pissing me big time. Who do you think he is to under estimate my ability.

  "I am stating a fact here Adrian practically speaking, this is million dollars investment at and we don't have time playing dumb to hire incompetent employees." He said disgusted.

"RAM she's the best person for the position." Adrian tried to defend me.

"She is? Is it because you know her? how about her ability? her capability and experience will gain her our trust, but she practically failed in that field I guess." He's added insult make me want to tear him apart. 

"Excuse me for interrupting, but I think I can answer that Mr. Mendez." I stood up and face him. He gave me his attention now. I can see his godamn smirk at ang sarap nyang hambalusin ng mga folder na nasa harap ko. I equally look at him in the eye. Look at me Mr. Mendez! Look at me on how I am going to stand after all your stupid accusations at me!

  "I may lack experience yes, you may say that Mr. Mendez, but I can proudly say that I can give you the best design that you need in this project, not just  good! but the best design  you need Mr. Mendez!" I proudly shout at him.

 I am a graduate of Interior designing, Magna cum laude at Harvard University, I've been an intern at JACOBS for a year and mind you just last week, I received an email from them Mr. Mendez, and that is from JACOBS that they want me to work for them full time. FULL TIME Mr. Mendez, and it means, I will be working full time in one of the largest architectural firm in the world." I am panting after my long speech. Nangingig ako sa inis sa lalaking ito. Nakita ko silang nakatunganga sa akin lahat. I don't know If I gained their respect or they must be thinking how come sinagot ko ng ganon si RAM.

"Hindi naman siguro ako I hi hire ng JACOBS for nothing hindi po ba? Hindi po ako nagmamayabang dito, I just want to gain some respect from you and trust too. That I can be the best person in this position. I can equally give you or even give better that your previous designer.I mean JACOBS will not be one of the best firm in the world if they don't have the best employees in their team right?" Kulang na lang isampal ko sa mukha nya ang mga sagot ko sa mga pang aalipusta nya sa akin.

"Fine, JACOBS, yes, its one of the best architectural firm, yes I agree but as we speak you were hired to be in their team, so why did you come back here in the first place?" He asked me seriously.

Napatitig ako sa kanya. Honestly, nawala ako dun. How dare him asked me that stupid question. Nakita kong biglang naiba ang tingin nya. I don't know what kind of feeling I saw in his eyes pero bigla syang umiwas sa mga mata ko. Bakit hindi mo ako titigan para malaman mo ang sagot sa mga tanong mo! 

"RAM, I begged her to come home to be part of this team. I know how good she is and I can bet to that at hindi ako maglalagay ng taong hindi fit sa position na yun." Adrian answer for me dahil hindi na rin nya nakikita na natutuwa ako sa conversation namin. Damn him for making me worthless all the time!

"Of course." He smile sarcastically.

"I guess there will be no more questions? We will be meeting again after two weeks for the drafts and some of our plates for approval.Meeting adjourned." Adrian said and I started to fix my things.

"Thank you again gentlemen." I said out of courtesy and leave the room without even waiting for Adrian.

I know he will understand me. Hindi ko na matatagalan pa makasama sya sa isang lugar. Malapit ng bumagsak ang mga luha ko. Dali dali akong pumasok sa isang comfort room at pumasok sa isang cubicle para umupo. Nag uunahan ang mga luha ko. Hindi ko alam at wala na rin akong pakialam kung may makakarinig pa sa akin habang humahagulgol. Kailangan kong ilabas ito. Masakit pa din. Sobrang sakit na parang binibiyak ang puso ko. Hindi ko alam kung paano nya nagagawang paulit ulit akong saktan at pahirapan. Hindi ko kailanman pinangarap na makikita ko sya ng ganito kabilis, not here at work and not as one of my boss! Not again! Bakit parang kahit anong pilit kong umiwas binabalik at binabalik ako sa kanya. What did I do to deserve this!

 It took me twenty minutes to fix my wits. I badly need to calm down.

I can't be here forever so I decided to fix my face and leave. Maybe I'll just text Adrian na mauna na ako sa condo. I don't think kakayanin ko pa syang makaharap so I will ask Adrian to look for another person for the job. I know he will understand.

Nagulat ako ng biglang may tumikhim pag labas ko sa comfort room.

Not again, hindi pa ako nakakarecover. Hindi ba sya marunong maawa. I try to continue walking when I heard his voice.

"Can we talk?" He asked na halos hindi ko marinig sa hina. 

Napapikit ako. Gusto kong sabihing ayoko pero ayokong magmukhang bitter ex fiancee . "What about?"

"He begged you to come home." It's not a question. Tiningnan ko syang nakakunot noo. Anong pinupunto nya? So what if Adrian begged me to come home? Dapat ba hindi? Para ano? para hindi na kami nagkita pa? God if I only knew I will see him again hinding hindi ako papayag sa kagustuhan ni Adrian. 

"So what?" I asked him furiously. Gustong gusto kong sabihin sa kanya na hinding hindi ko ginusto na magtagpo pa ang landas namin pero huwag na lang. Tumahimik na lang ako.

"Can I ask a question?" Napakunot ang noo ko. He seem off. Bakit parang nakikita ko sa mga mata nya na nasasaktan sya? God don't tell me. No Faye! he's not! for God sake! don't over think! Ang tagal nya bago nagsalita. It seems hinahanap pa nya kung anong tamang salita ang sasabihin nya sa akin. Nanatili akong nakatitig sa kanya.

"If....If... I...... beg you to stay that time, .........will you stay?" He said in a whisper.

Hindi ako nakasagot, nakatitig at nakatulala ako sa mga mata nyang punong puno ng sakit. I saw a tear fall down his eye. Umiwas sya ng tingin sa akin and it breaks me more.

"Sorry, you don't have to answer." He said and leave me dumbfounded.