My eyes well with tears. I start to cry as quietly as I can so that Alex doesn't hear me. The tears roll onto the pillow and leave a wet spot. Alex turns to me and wipes away the tears.
"Baby, I'll be okay. I'll get the tumour removed and I'll live. I'll be okay." Her words are comforting but not enough to stop the tears.
"What if you don't end up okay? What if this tumour kills you? What will I do?" The words come out through whines and stutters.
"You'll move on. I'll leave and come back to a better life, and you'll find somebody else." Her voice sounds so optimistic. Her eyes are joyful. It seems like she wants to die.
"Do you want the tumour to kill you? You seem so happy about this all." Her joy turns into surprise and her mouth opens.
"No." She pauses. "Maybe." Another pause. "Fine, yes kind of, my parents hate me and I have no real friends. So I do want this tumour to kill me." Her words stab at my heart, and I start to cry harder. "It's okay, you'll find someone better when I'm gone baby."
"I don't want someone else. I want you. Nobody else accepts me like you, nobody is like you. You are one of a kind, and I want someone who is one of a kind. Not someone who tries to hard to fit in. Plus I want someone I love, and I love you." The words escape through more whines and stutters. "I can't lose you Alex."
"Yes you can, if I die you'll meet someone else that's special." Her voice makes me stop crying a little. My tears won't go away, but they slow down.
"Alex, I love you so much."
"I love you too, Tyler."
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The Hardest Person to Love
DragosteTyler Way, a high school student and musician, goes through his senior year in love with Alex Anderson the sister of his guitarist, and best friend to his twin sister. Then Tyler finds out something to change his life forever.
