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When I walked into the room I seen hope’s little body laying on the bed peacefully as she slept with her doll in her arms hugged tight to her body and her headphones in her head still. Just seeing that she was alright and safe my body calmed down. I walked over to her bed and carefully took her head phones out and leaned down and gave her a soft kiss on the side of her head. I got in the bed next to her careful not to wake her up, and brought her close to me and held her securely in my arms. She snuggled closer to me and that brought a small smile on my face, but remembering what happened brought tears to my eyes. “I’m so sorry hope.” I whispered as I buried my head into her back. “I wasn’t here to protect you and I promised I would. I’m so sorry, I’m so so sorry. If I was here for you he wouldn’t have been able to even come near you let alone touch you. I’m so sorry” my voice broke at the end as tears fell from my eyes silently. Hearing the door open quietly made me look up through bleary eyes. I could tell it was jayden even if I couldn’t see him clearly. I didn’t want him to see me like this, we just reconnected and now he is seeing me weak again. I turned my head back into hopes back lightly hoping she wouldn’t wake up I didn’t want her to see me like this I had to be strong for her. “Promise” I heard Jayden to me his voice laced with hurt in it. but I didn’t respond I couldn’t because I knew my voice would crack if I said something. “please don’t do this again. please, don’t push me out please. Don’t.” he said brokenly. I looked up and he looked so sad my heart clenched painfully from the look in his eyes “don’t do this shit to me promise. I fucking love you. I could see your hurting bad right now. Not just because of what happened with hope but that this all reminded you of your past. Let be there to help you though the pain. Promise I here for you and I aint fucking going nowhere. Don’t do this shit just fucking let me and don’t push me out.” He said as he finished he was by the bed kneeling down next to me by the bed. I looked into his eyes and I could see the love he always had for me but there was some hurt and frustration in them too. I lifted my arm and he came in the bed behind me and pulled me and hope into his arms. He wrapped a protective arm around m and hope and brought his other arm under me had that arm around my stomach in a protective manner. He kissed my neck lightly “I love you promise and i aint fucking leaving you I got three people that I have to protect now just let fucking do it” he whispered into my ear. “I love you too Jayden so much” I said as I let his warmth and the sound of his voice calm me down. He started to sing it will rain by Bruno mars in my ear quietly bringing a smile to face as I slowly went to sleep in the arms of the love of my life, the little girl I would kill for, and my babies laying peacefully in my stomach other than the occasional flutter. I was at peace for the moment.
. If you ever leave me baby,
Leave some morphine at my door
‘Cause it would take a whole lot of medication
To realize what we used to have,
We don’t have it anymore.
There’s no religion that could save me
No matter how long my knees are on the floor
So keep in mind all the sacrifices I’m makin’
Will keep you by my side
Will keep you from walkin’ out the door.
Cause there’ll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There’ll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same, if you walk away
Everyday it will rain, rain, rain...
I’ll never be your mother’s favorite
Your daddy can’t even look me in the eye
Oooh if I was in their shoes, I’d be doing the same thing
Sayin there goes my little girl
Walkin’ with that troublesome guy
But they’re just afraid of something they can’t understand
Oooh well little darlin’ watch me change their minds
Yeah for you I’ll try I’ll try I’ll try I’ll try
I’ll pick up these broken pieces ’til I’m bleeding
If that’ll make you mine
Cause there’ll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There’ll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same if you walk away
Everyday it will rain, rain, rain...
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- Short I know and I'm sorry but I thought of this so I had to write it. And I wanted promise to get a happy moment in the storry sos he could feel at ease for once <3
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