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I ran to his body as fast as I could, I ignored all of Jayden’s calls for me to come back. When I got to him I dropped to my knees in front of him. I looked at him but it didn’t look like he was breathing and his body was turned at a awkward position. I turned him over carefully supporting his neck so it wouldn’t break. When I got him back in a laying position I tried to find a pulse. Panicking a little when I couldn’t find it I immediately started to do CPR on him. I could hear an ambulance siren blaring in the background . I pulled away to see if I got a pulse out of him but came out empty. “This can’t be happening to me. why is everyone leaving me” I cried to myself as I hugged brad’s body to me closely just wishing he would hold me back just like he use to do all the other times before we split up. “I love you, always will. Bye” his last words wrong in my mind repeatedly. I was the last person he seen. I made him leave the world heartbroken. I should have said something before he walked away. I should have ran after him faster maybe he would have came over to me faster. I felt my body being ripped apart from him. I watched as they tried to get a jump from his heart. I watched as they did numerous procedures to him right there in the road in front of my school, in front of my eyes. I felt Jayden holding me tightly as I cried he didn’t let go, he just held onto me tighter. I turned in his arms and wrapped my arms around his neck holding him tightly as I cried into his chest.
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They claimed he was dead on scene. They wouldn’t let anyone see his body other than family. When his parents seen me at the hospital his mom almost killed me saying it was my fault her baby died. Her husband had to take her away and they left with her in tears bawling her eyes out for her lost son. The police showed up later and said that all brad had on him was a picture. The picture was of me and him on our first date. He had his arms around me the both of us smile at each other our faces full of happiness. When I looked at the picture I completely broke down Jayden had to hold me down and bring me home.
But that was 3 weeks ago. the funeral came and gone. I wasn’t a loud to go because his mother didn’t want me there. I’ve been a complete mess lately. I went to school finished up all my exams and I spoke to no one. I barely spare Jayden any of my time lightly. I just get up tend to my babies and then go to sleep. If he speaks to I gave him short replies but other than that nothing.
Its twelve o’clock now and I’ve been up waiting on Jayden. Now I just wait in the bed wide awake waiting for him to come home. Once he gets here he spends time with the kids takes a shower tries to speak to me when I say nothing or tell him something he doesn’t want to hear he just turns the lights off and goes to sleep. That’s how it’s been these past few weeks. I looked at the time again to see it was 12:45. I sighed and turned over tin the bed and fell asleep.
***Dream***
It was pitch dark. I couldn’t even see my hand that’s how dark it was. It felt wet and sticky and like I was in a room. “promise” I heard someone reason. I looked around but I still couldn’t see anything. “promise” I heard the voice say again but it sounded closer. “who are you and how the fuck do you know my name” I tried to act strong but I was scared shitless. I heard a deep chuckle and it sounded evil. “you mean you don’t remember me promise” he said but it sounded like the person was right behind me. “who are you” I croaked as I backed away and I felt I back into a wall or something. “it's me baby. I thought a child would always remember their father’s voice” he said with a humorless chuckle. I could hear footsteps coming towards me. I felt him stop right in front of me. I was so scared I was shaking. All the courage I built up over the years trying to be strong and brave that big front I always put up felt like it all crumbled, it felt like I was that same defenseless little girl I use to be. “what do you want from me” I asked desperately as I brought my knees up to my chest and held myself tightly. “oh I want nothing from you, your just a pathetic little killer” he whispered tauntingly. “what are you talking about” I choked out as tears poured down my face. “you know exactly what I’m talking about little promise” he whispered in my ear. I jumped back trying to get away from him but he just got closer to me. “you kill everyone you love, what shame.” He said in mock disappointment. “get the hell away from I don’t know what you’re talking about” I cried as I tried to get away from him as he started to play in my hair. “poor Anthony and brad” he said in a fake sad voice. “they loved you so much and you killed them” he said. “because of you they died. They would never see the light of day again” he said as he ran his hand down my arm. “I didn’t kill anybody just get the fuck away from me” I screamed. “yes you did promise. Anthony came to see you but you were too busy being a dirty little whore to notice him.” he said as my hand and I snatched it back. “he was killed when he was on his way to see you” he said as he touched my leg. I tried to get up and run but he grabbed my hair and threw me on the ground. “and poor brad he just wanted you to love him. he loved you so much but you just was under another nigga’s dick too much to love him back. You could have saved him promise. You could have helped him but no you didn’t say anything to the boy as he poured his heart out to you” he said as he held me against him. I tried to get away from him. I kicked and screamed but he wouldn’t let me go. I was bawling to this point but all he did was tighten his grip on me. “and we can’t forget about your poor mother now can we” he said with a dark chuckle. “you just ran out on her. She needed your help but you just left her. You made you biggest mistake when you left her with me” he said as he laughed and ran his hands through my hair. I was getting tired of fighting and my throat was hurting from all the screaming I was doing. “you know she loved you but you hated her. Why didn’t you help he promise” he said loudly as he yanked my hair back. “why didn’t you save her” he said as he threw me to the ground. “you watched her die slowly. I bet you wanted her to die. Her death is on your hands and so is everyone one else’s” he finished darkly as he kicked my head. I seen images flash before my eyes. me and my as a baby as I watched my mom get beaten by my dad, Me leaving, me and Anthony the first time we met, Anthony holding me while I cried, Anthony telling me he loved me and always being there for me, Anthony getting shot, the first time I met brad, brad telling me he loved me, him kissing that girl, him in complete tears at my school, and then him getting hit by the car.
