Trapped Underneath a Secret

20- Returning Back to Normal

Brian made me not be so stubborn and have him help me. He buckled me in the car while I sat back and relaxed. We stopped at my precinct and I asked why. He ignored me, smiled and opened my car door and unbuckled for me. He helped me out and brought me to the elevator. We went up to my floor and when the doors opened, "SURPRISE!!" I jumped back and went into Brain's arms getting scared. "It's ok baby! This party is for you! Your celebration of you getting out, surviving, and getting healthy!" He smiled and took good hand and held it tight but with love. "Welcome back Clara!" "Thanks Alex!" I smiled and felt so amazing and loved at that moment! I thanked everyone for coming and spoke to everyone and they told how brave I was and how much respect they have for me.
        After a few hours of laughing and jokes and sharing the worry they had because they missed me, I had started to get claustrophobic and sweaty. I started breathing hard and I was getting dizzy. I stepped out and went to the roof to get some air. I leaned against the wall that has the door and I just needed to breath. I felt it building up and I just started crying and balling and breathing heavily. All I could do is cry, I felt as if everything was closing in on myself and I was losing. Then I felt the warmth of a body just holding me and assuring me, "You know what he didn't take from you? Your will to fight. I'll tell you what my little one, when you were little you didn't care what someone did to you, you stood up to them." I looked up and it was my mom, "How..." "I got to the party late and I saw you leave so I followed and told everyone to stay behind. Your not the best with your emotions. So I figured you needed someone who could just tell you a few examples of who you really are." She smiled and hugged me, I needed my mom and I missed her so much!
       After a while of talking, I didn't realize how much my mom had missed me. She even went back to my old kindergarten school where she accidentally locked me in the car! Then that got me thinking about my dad and Dave, who by the way laughed the entire time I was locked in the car! "Hey... Mom. Can I ask you something? "Sure." "Did you ever see Dave or Dad when they died?" "Why do you ask?" She looked so concerned and upset, "Forget about it.." She looked at me and took my hand, "Clara, sweetie, you can tell me anything." "When I died, partially, and flatlined... I talked to them, to dad and Dave." "You did?" My Mom looked curious but in the go  on type of way, "Yeah I talked to them and they gave me a choice of staying with them in heaven or going back here and fulfilling my life goals." She looked at her and hugged her. "OH sweetie I know! I had dreams constantly of them talking to me! I had hoped I wasn't crazy!!" She smiled and kissed my cheek.
We talked for a little and went inside. Brian hugged me and made sure I was ok. I never thought I'm a million years that a man could be so supporting of a woman like me. I never thought that a woman like me could go through all she went through and not have a complete mental breakdown. I think I have learned a lot from this whole experience. As we were talking there was a call and Chief went to his office for a long time! I looked at my watch it had been 45-minutes! Then he came out and said that I needed to come into his office and that Brian need to come with me. What did Alex need to tell us?