By Your Side

The Complete Asshole

I hate humans. I just despise them. I don't understand why humans can just take your feelings and then later on throw them in the trash can. You might think that I'm just saying all these things mainly because I got dumped by some guy. Well....you guessed it right. It wasn't a normal dump it was the most horrible way to get dumped especially when my ex had deep feelings for me. I thought that he wanted to take things up in our relationship but it turned out that he just wanted to be with me just for the sake of my company. I hate humans. I hate guys too, but worst of all I hate myself.

Your wondering why I hate myself, but I'm just sick and tired of myself to be honest. I get picked on by my ex and his friends everyday at school. They think its some kind of game or whatever, but if you ask me they are picking on me because I'm such a slut and a whore. My ex manipulated them into thinking that I fully wanted his body and so on, but yet what I don't understand is that HE was the one that wanted it. Of course I'm still a virgin, but maybe that's why he broke up with me. I simply wasn't just giving him what he wanted.

I'm a complete loner. I live on my own because my dad is just a complete drunken asshole. He honestly has been like that ever since my mom had passed away. I miss him everyday. He just wouldn't stop drinking I couldn't bare to see him like that so I started living on my own. I have a job and what not, but I've just been lonely. All I have is this big emptied room that should have people in it, but it's just me. 

I just hate being alone. I can't sleep. I can barely eat. I just hate myself I hate how I don't have anyone to be with or hang out with. Even though I do have friends that care about me I just hate living alone in my house. I just....hate it.

What sucks is that I have to always go to school. I hate school. I wake up doing my typical morning routine: I wake up, take a shower, brush my teeth, get dressed, make breakfast, eat the breakfast I had made, wash the dishes I had used, turn off all the lights from my house, and then get ready to go to school. You might think I'm crazy, but I'm actually the head council of the school. I like to look after my school and I do one hell of a job at it. I know I shouldn't be so hard on myself, but the reason why I hate myself is because I let my ex bully the shit out of me even though I want to punch the living hell out of him, I can't because he is much bigger than me one swing at him and it's game over.

My school isn't that fancy, but it's alright looking I guess. It does have amazing views and sceneries so I guess it is quite fancy. Yes, if your wondering I do get busy in this school. Since I am the president of the student council I do have a lot of responsibilities too many, but what do you expect I appreciate the students that are on the campus. Even though I despise humans I kind of appreciate them in a way. "Hey Nakamura-san, there's been trouble outside", says Takahashi Kai that is the vice president of the council "Alright, I'm on my way", as I run through the door with all of my might. What could it be now after everything that has happened I honestly didn't think something like this would happen.

As I run outside the school I see a circle as if a fight has been going on "What the hell is going on here", I said as I'm shoving students out of the way to get through "This guy just started punching this student", as I make my way through I see a student on the ground and another guy standing over him with such anger in his eyes. "Does anyone know where the President of the student council is at ", he says looking at each and every student that is circling him "That would be me. My name is Nakamura Misaki and I am the student council president and may I have YOUR name please", I say as I am approaching him face to face "My name is Susuki Daku and I was just minding my own damn business till this idiot starting ranting that I'm such a worthless looking punk", he says as he scares the student after saying that. I can't believe this idiot decides to punch the hell out of this student. Who does he think he is some damn fucking king "And what gives you the right to harass this student. You might think you run this place but in this school I run this place okay and if you have any problems then take it out on me not him", I said as I am directly face to face at him with such an angry look. After I said that he looks at me as if I have a death wish and shoves me to the ground "What the hell are you doing. Your suppose to be getting pissed off at this guy for saying the things he said to me and here you are being a useless and ignoring what I just said", he said as I'm getting really pissed off and cluching my hand into a fist "Your nothing but a worthless student council president that doesn't give a crap about anyone. If that were the case then you should be......", I then punch the hell out of him with all of my might not even allowing him to finish. I then place my foot on his chest to not give him the opportunity to get up "WHAT THE HELL IS YOUR DEAL! TALKING ALL THAT CRAP! LEARN TO HAVE RESPECT FOR OTHERS FOR ONCE! I DON'T CARE WHAT BED YOU CHOSE TO SLEEP ON LAST NIGHT, BUT YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO TAKE IT OUT ON OTHERS NOR EVEN PHYSICALLY TAKE IT OUT ON OTHERS! YOU SHOULD TAKE A RAIN CHECK BECAUSE YOUR NOT THE ONLY ONE THAT'S GOING THROUGH SHIT. YOU SHOULD BE CAREFUL WITH THE WORDS YOU CHOOSE NEXT TIME......have a good day", I said as I start walking away before anyone saw me crying. 

Class has started and I haven't gotten down yet. After what just happened I don't want to be here I have my ex that bugs me now I also gotta be worrying about someone else. This all just fucking sucks. I'm up here on the rooftop crying my eyes out and nobody can even hear me. "Awe seems like I'm not the only one that makes you cry", I overhear in the distance not even wanting to know who it was, but I do know the voice it sounds so familiar "Can't you just leave me alone for once why do you have to bother me even when it's such horrible timing", I said as I look away from him. Not even catching my attention his friends closes the door without even me noticing it "Well sweetheart hate to break it to you, but I go to the same school as you", he says as he grabs me from my wrists" but I get to do whatever I want to you even while the door IS closed", he said. I look and notice his friends blocking the door. I try to resist, but he is too strong for me to resist "Can't break free huh, well you can't because last time I checked you have nobody to save you or better yet even save you", he said as him and his friends start laughing. "Your right. I don't have nobody who can stop me or even save me. So what's the point in breaking free right", I said as I stop from even trying with this guy "Shut up you bitch", he said as he slaps me and I fall to the ground "You should learn your manners", he said as he grabs my face to make him look at him. He then tries to get handsy with me "whenever there's guys around before talking like that to us". I close my eyes and not even notice a shadow coming in my direction "Yo pussies! Would you mind shutting your mouths before I do it for you", Susuki says as he throws the smoke to the ground and starts approaching my ex and his friends "Do you know who you are talking to you punk", my ex says as his friends gets around him squaring him "Your about to be one if you don't stop man handling Nakamura", he says as he is getting ready to fight him. He then punches the first guy that approaches him and man kicks the other guy from behind and grabs my ex by his collar "I don't know who you are but if you can just.....", my ex says with a fearful look in his eyes "J-Just what ", he says smirking at my ex while he has him by the collar " Y-You can get in trouble you know f-for smoking ", he says trying to give him an excuse to stop him "I know Misaki won't do anything about it after what I'm going to do to you ", he says as he throws him to the ground and kick him in the face " Now get out of my face before I really hurt you ", Daku says as my ex and his friends runs off. After that happened Daku licks the little cut and scraps he has from the fight and approaches me "Well you gunna say thank you ", he says as he crosses his arms and stares down on me. He then notices I started to cry so he sits right next to me and offers a bottled water "Here take this", he said as he looked away from my direction "I can't tell if this is an apology or simply you saying your sorry for what just happened ", I said as I grab the water bottle and take a sip "Shut up. I just don't like what that guy did to you", he said as he looks off at another direction "Oh so it's okay for you to do that to me, but for anyone it's not okay", I said as I stand up and look at him. He then gets up and says "Wow so that's what I get aft.....", he says as he stumbles and grabs himself from falling down "Y-You alright Susuki why.....", I said as I see what is happening.